Chapter 319 But I can’t do it
It is mid-December.

A few days after the exam, and also half a month after being with Ling.

The relationship between the two can still be described as peaceful.

Although I held hands and hugged Zero, there was no further progress beyond that.

A few days ago, Zhuo had hugged Ling closely, but he did nothing. If his friends knew, they would definitely laugh at him. Of course, Zhuo felt that his judgment at the time was not wrong, but he also understood that it would not be strange if he was accused of not being manly.

Zhuo's heart was also very conflicted. He really wanted to deepen their relationship, but at the same time he was afraid that things would move too fast, just like Zhu Bajie eating the ginseng fruit, which had no aftertaste.

Moreover, although he knew that Ling would definitely give in to him if he made a firm move, it was precisely for this reason that Zhuo wanted to examine this relationship even more.

So, it is understandable even if you are called a nagging coward.

Zhuo glanced at Ling who was sitting in the middle of the sofa. Ah, this was probably the recent change between the two. On weekdays, when they were eating, watching TV, or doing nothing, Zhuo's position had not changed, but Ling had moved to the middle of the sofa. The distance between the two was probably not enough to fit a fist.

Several days had passed since the impulse that day. Although both of them tossed and turned facing the ceiling with the lights off before going to bed that night, perhaps because Ling knew that Zhuo had no intention of doing anything, he had now returned to his original state.

That's right, just zero.

Once again, Zhuo Zhen is just an ordinary person. So, it is normal for some adolescent boys to have wild thoughts controlled by hormones... As a result, he is the only one who cannot sleep comfortably.

Zhuo himself was also thinking, what's the big deal about the stiff attitude of the party who is about to take action? But he couldn't help being nervous after all.

"...what's wrong?"

Ling noticed Zhuo's gaze and cast a puzzled look at him. She didn't seem to notice Zhuo's entanglement.

"Hmm - I was thinking, well, how should I put it... I was thinking about how to contact you more appropriately."

"I want to work hard but I always feel that I will fall if I am not careful." Zhuo added in a low voice, which was not to be underestimated. This sentence seemed to remind Ling of what happened a few days ago. Her pupils trembled and her eyes began to wander.

Ling seemed to have completely forgotten about that incident, and her reaction made Zhuo laugh.

"That is, do you have any suggestions?"

"…You're asking me this kind of thing?"

"Well, look, after all, Zero is the person involved. In case I do something you don't like, I'd like to slow down the pace as much as possible... Well, that's what I mean."

It is absolutely not okay to act recklessly and cause Zero to be unhappy because of his temper. He will be condemned by his conscience and reason. And if his parents knew about this, they would definitely scold him. And doing so might lead to the same situation as last time, where he would be on the edge of a precarious cliff and his reason might get out of control at any time.

And since they have decided to be together forever, they should try their best to consider each other instead of being controlled by instinct. If Ling is unhappy or dissatisfied along the way, Zhuo's heart will also be hurt, so he hopes to meet Ling's wishes.

With this thought in mind, Zhuo stared straight at Ling.

Ling looked in the opposite direction of Zhuo, looking restless, and then leaned on Zhuo's shoulder.

"Actually, I have the same idea as you. I also need some time to prepare. But before that, Zhuo just needs to do what you like. I can accept it... but you can't do anything weird with my shoes."

"…The beginning was fine, but what were you talking about at the end?!" "Hmm—"

"What kind of answer is that!!!... Never mind, I'm not planning on doing anything weird... But, is this really okay?"

"I said it's OK."

Zhuo thinks so.

Although Ling said this, both his tone and expression could be described as indifferent, but even so, the fact that Zhuo was touching her body wantonly seemed to make her a little nervous. Zhuo could feel a slight tremor from the shoulder that was touching hers.

Zhuo was happy that Ling was willing to accept him, but at the same time he reminded himself that he must not act recklessly.

Zhuo had a strong desire to get close to Ling, but he didn't know how to do it, or where to start. After hesitating for a full ten seconds, Zhuo put his arms around Ling who was leaning on him, and then gently hugged her body.

Although it was a fact I had known for a long time, I realized it again when the time came - Zero is really a small creature.

Zhuo found that Ling's petite body was trembling slightly in his arms, so he patted her back gently to relax her stiff body.

The careful action was to tell Ling that Zhuo was not going to do anything excessive. So Ling relaxed his body and leaned on Zhuo.

"Don't worry too much, I won't do anything. I will definitely do what I promised Zero~"

“…I’m not afraid.”

"Even if you say that it's not convincing."

"Well, if I say I'm shy, even I don't believe it... or should I say I'm looking forward to it?"

"expect?"

"…Like kissing, or something."

Ling put his face against Zhuo's chest, curled up and muttered to himself as if he wanted to listen to his heartbeat like last time. This time it was Zhuo's turn to tremble.

"...I know what Zhuo is thinking. I also hope that this memory can be as long and rich as possible...but I don't think that means I can do it."

Zero's words were so tempting that Zhuo felt love welling up in his heart and was also moved. Or rather, he was moved because he could feel Zero's love for him.

Normally, Ling always exudes an empty aura of "I am a killer, I have no feelings", but now she says something so incredible that Zhuo can't even dream of it, and throws it directly in the face of Zhuo, who is her lover. Thanks to her, Zhuo's head and rationality are shaking.

Zhuo was afraid that if he wasn't careful, he would pick her up and bite her directly, so he had to bite his lips hard to suppress the impulse.

"Since you know what I'm thinking, you should consider my feelings more." Zhuo muttered and hugged Ling tightly.

And Ling was like an exquisite doll sitting sideways in his arms, buried in his chest, allowing Zhuo to manipulate her however he wanted - an expression of "whatever you want is fine".

(End of this chapter)