Chapter 288 I will love you as much as I love her
4 month 27 day.

morning.

After saying that he preferred foods like meatballs, he went out normally.

Su Ming...a strange man.

In the early days, when there were people around me who called me Miss Skylark, I also smiled naturally.

I was originally very ordinary, and I clumsily learned the arts of music, chess, calligraphy, and painting required by my family, and learned how to walk.

But I, who had no talent, obviously could not meet my parents' expectations. They were always impatient and asked me to work harder. I also always thought that I was not doing well enough.

'You can't die.'

'Even if you don't have good talent, at least you look good... as long as you are pretty, it will always be useful.'

'After all this effort, at least there should be some reward.'

'...'

I caught a cold. My fever was high and my consciousness was very blurred.

When I came to my senses, my parents seemed to have searched all the doctors in the city, and then asked someone from some church to perform a prayer ceremony for me.

I died once. For sure.

Because at that time, I saw the 'abyss' with my own eyes. There was no exit in either direction. It only asked me one question: 'Do you want to live?' It only told me that if I didn't accept it, I would die. I wanted to live.

'what happened? ’

"It was just a bud yesterday, but it's blooming today?"

That was my first time performing a miracle.

If you bring the half-dead rice to me and let it pretend to beg from me, it will come back to life in less than a day.

If I touch a sick child's head, the child will jump up and down in the afternoon to thank me.

"The eldest daughter of the Sertis family has become a god!"

"The living God!"

'...'

From that time on, no one treated me as a human being anymore. My parents no longer asked me to learn the arts of music, chess, calligraphy, or painting, and no longer planned who I should marry in the future.

'No, this is my daughter.'

"I'll give you a little more protection, but what about us? If you want, just give me money. This money is not for me, but for Yun Que's incense money."

'...'

Before I knew it, I was back in my room. My bedroom.

It used to be filled with all kinds of musical instruments, calligraphy pages, and brushes. But now there are only cute decorations and chains wrapped around my feet. It's just because the window is too small... I want to look outside, so I lie on a stool and look at the window. They thought I wanted to escape.

I don’t have that idea. I was born here, where else can I go?
The book says that people cannot obtain wealth beyond their own cognition. I think the same is true for happiness. People cannot obtain happiness beyond their own cognition. Although from the perspective of decades later, I was quite pitiful at that time. But if it were me decades ago, I would not feel depressed.

Can help others.

My parents also praised me highly. They just asked me to endure the loneliness. I could read books and practice calligraphy in my room in my spare time.

"Clatter, clatter—"

Although the sound of the chain rattling can be noisy, in winter the iron can get cold and annoying.

'What the hell is wrong with you?'

'It works in the morning, but not in the afternoon?'

"I've raised you for so many years, and you can't even handle such a small matter?! The prayer meeting tonight must be effective... otherwise you won't be able to eat for the next few days."

'...'

I am very tired.

I have no idea why this body works, and my parents don't care. They just want to see the results.

"Useless thing, do you want to destroy the Sertis family? ! "

At that time, the Sertis family had grown from a small and insignificant guild in the city to the richest and most powerful family. But my parents were not satisfied with this and needed me to do more... Powerful people from a faraway city also came and prayed for me devoutly through the curtains.

But I hadn’t eaten for two days, and I felt hungry and sleepy after sitting there to receive blessings.

"Is this the kind of thing your family relies on to commit fraud?"

"Very good, you tricked me... I'm tired of living."

My parents said that the man was from Wangdu. He first cried and knelt down to beg me for help, then he pinched my neck... It was very painful.

Originally, everyone thought of me as a "god". But when the disaster came, everyone was regarded as an evil believer who had something to do with the Sertis family. The gratitude that came to me was no longer gratitude. It was much more malicious than before.

"This is all the problem of the Sertis family."

"It's all the fault of the eldest daughter of the Sertis family. She forced us to become believers..."

"If she dies, the people in the capital won't blame us, right?"

'...'

Many people were eager to take away the things I had helped them with. The small window that I used to peek out of became a portal for them to throw things in.

"Skylark, only your death can protect our family now."

'no solution anymore. '

'...'

I have no choice. I can be a god or a sinner.

Yes.

My body was not like this at the beginning. It didn’t make leaves wither when it touched them, or make people spit blood when it saw them.

That’s when I…cried and asked my parents.

I had always listened to them, but when I did something wrong, the book said that only people who did wrong things would go to jail or be beheaded.

'You are a monster.'

'You are not our daughter at all... You are not a god at all!'

"Stop pretending to be so pathetic! We were also bewitched by you..."

I can't tell you what I did wrong. I just want to die.

I said that I could make sick children healthy again, and as long as I ate well, it would work every time and I would never make any mistakes.

I also said that I could revive dying flowers, and as long as I could sleep properly, I would never fail again. It would definitely work every time.

'See? That's how she seduced us.'

The people pouring in from outside the door looked at me with disgust. They wished I would die immediately, and I could feel the piercing disgust.

At that time, I was escaping from reality. In fact, I knew it was wrong a long time ago, but I just thought that I could be happy as long as I obeyed. I hypnotized myself and thought that I was happy now. There was nothing wrong with that. But after reading so many books, how could I not know that it was wrong?
She just divides the good intentions and bad intentions into two parts and stores them, and throws the bad things to me. She just needs to forget everything and want nothing.

What she said was that she and I...were actually the same.

The innocent me before was also a part of me. Even if I actively forget or escape, I can't change what has already happened. I can't change the fact that this body is a monster.

I've been honest, I'm not a good person.

It didn't matter if the people in the city were young or old, they all died because of me. If I were a monster, why would I bother to distinguish who didn't hate me so much, who could possibly understand me after a conversation?

It would be fine if they were all dead.

I said, if this world only has humans, it is not a place for us to live in. So we need to kill everyone.

Another person said that it would be more lonely after killing it.

I don't agree.

lonely?

So many years have passed since I was born. What is loneliness? Or what else can this body gain besides loneliness? Killing intent? Hatred?

Another thing I like is reading storybooks. That is an interest that was hidden under the pressure of my parents long ago. At the end of the story, it says... As long as everyone has good intentions, they will always find their own salvation.

Now, as I stepped out of the hotel and faced the glaring sun, I agreed with this statement.

Su Ming is neither a businessman nor someone who hates me.

Even if she tried her best to see his ugly side, she never did.

The book says that some people never meet good people in their entire lives, and are eventually devoured by the malice around them and turned into monsters.

It is also said that although some people have met bad people, they can also meet good people. Although the proportion of good people is very small, they can still avoid being swallowed up.

I listened to them all night on the second floor.

Sometimes flirtatious words, sometimes shy sweet talk. The book calls this a lover.

Unlike me, I just wanted to arouse his desire so that she couldn't escape from me.

"There's nothing I can do about it. I didn't know Yun Que actually liked Brother Su Ming so much."

The other was very naive.

Even if I were to control this body towards destruction right now, I would not have any fear.

"I've thought about it before. If I have someone I like and Skylark doesn't like him, I don't know what to do... It's best if Skylark likes him as much as I do."

"Well……"

"Could it be that because I like Brother Su Ming, Yun Que also likes him?"

No.

I like his attitude of not hesitating about anything.

He has desires and doesn't hide them, but he never forces me or tries hard to get me to do anything... It's as if whether I'm willing or not depends entirely on my mood.

The more this happened, the more I wanted him and the more I desired me.

I thought it was just fun at first. Until he started having other women around.

"I envy that sister so much. Brother Su Ming's relationship with her is completely different from that with Sertis."

“It makes me happy just looking at it.”

None of us want to go back to the dead city.

Most of the memories that place brought back were painful. Even the memories of his visit became painful after he realized that it was impossible to be happy all the time in this body.

4 month 27 day.

noon.

The leaves turned yellow, and then the roots withered, and the people around me began to spit blood.

At first no one knew it was me, but when I was the only one standing there unscathed, they would naturally look at me in horror.

"……sorry."

"I always throw nasty things at you."

no big deal.

Judging from the stupid look I had before, I should have been dead for decades.

"I just can't learn those things. I still don't know how Yun Que did it... She can face Brother Su Ming without wearing a skirt and sticking out her legs. Isn't she embarrassed?"

He actually enjoyed it.

"If it were Yun Que, it would definitely... be the stage of having a baby."

will not.

The body is the same, if you can't check it, you can't check it. Besides, I haven't decided whether to give birth to a child for him.

"But if Brother Su Ming really wants it, Yun Que will definitely not refuse."

That's right.

If he, who doesn't even want to call me sister, asks me to give birth to his child, I will probably agree.

There was wailing everywhere.

Some people were so scared that they would crawl away from me.

I also want to thank Thertis, my other self... Thank you. If Thertis hadn't disturbed my thoughts, I would have killed him at the beginning.

"I asked Brother Su Ming to lock me up with chains...but in the end he was unwilling to really lock me up."

"If Brother Su Ming really locked me up with a chain, I might not like Brother Su Ming so much. We all hate chains..."

I rarely communicate directly with Thertis.

Now, it doesn't matter. Anyway, there is nothing to miss. It's better to stay still than to become a monster.

"Will Brother Su Ming be very sad..."

Before you get sad, do you want him to see you covered in blood?

Before you get sad, you should think about yourself first. After all these years, nothing has changed at all?

"Because I am Sertis... and Brother Su Ming is very good to Sertis. I don't want to make him sad."

Then we should try to walk as far as possible, so that he will think we are just leaving. I originally thought so, maybe I will be lucky... I will not see anyone who can kill me or wants to kill me even if I walk further. Then we should go to a very remote place.

Maybe I can make it through. If not, we'll see. As long as I don't lose control in front of him, it'll be fine.

"Sertis, Skylark... you committed an unforgivable sin decades ago."

"Want to do it again now?"

No one appeared in front of me, I only heard shouting. From a distance, I was born riding a winged beast.

"A warning to all residents of Kuli Town. The Dead City has existed for 56 years. After a vote by the Imperial Capital Conference...if the witch leaves the Dead City again, there will be a chance to eliminate the harm of the Dead City in one fell swoop."

"I will have the authority to activate the Inferno Array."

"I will remember your deaths, and your service to the Empire will be consoled... I promise that your loved ones will be well rewarded."

"..."

The people in the sky had no intention of getting too close to me, nor to this town. After hearing this, the people around me cursed loudly, their noses bled wildly... They covered their noses and tried to climb further with difficulty.

I could only experience an extremely negative emotion.

I was still wearing clothes that smelled like him. It was not nice, just sweat.

I regret it a little bit. Although Sertis is silly... she can say that she likes kissing. I like it too, but I can't say it when he kisses my toes. I am also shy. If I were the older sister... I can only say yes when he says he wants to kiss.

I am the same person as Thetis. But if I like someone, I really don't want to be seen in a mess.

Just remember it. Willing to stretch out my legs... for the first time to be a toy. Willing to be served with a baby canteen. At the beginning, I would never have thought that I would grow up to this extent and be played with by someone again. I was very happy during this period.

But these things feel strange to me.

I'm not used to it. I'm afraid...if he betrays me one day, will I kill him?

I like him, even if he betrayed me. I don't want to kill him, so I want to leave. Just remember what I said before. You don't have to see me in such an embarrassing state.

I can't suppress my love and will get jealous.

You won't be too sad, will you? She's so perfect that I'm jealous... If I could be her, I wouldn't have to say anything and would never be able to escape, and I wouldn't have to worry about that kind of problem at all.

"..."

The scorching flames spread. The wailing gradually faded away. Will I die at this rate?
meeting.

Because I am smiling now. I am not so disgusted with human beings. Although there is a lot of malice around me, there is always a little bit of existence that makes me feel warm.

So, I had a choice.

Should I calmly accept the fact that I am a monster and die, or destroy another city and turn it into a dead city.

Are black stockings really that good? If so, why don't they give me the same stockings with holes instead? I want to wear the same black stockings as hers, and then step on them repeatedly for three days and three nights, so that she will only remember me.

No, the people in heaven said that all the people in the town of Curry should die together.

He is here too.

The people in heaven wanted to kill him?

"Although I am a coward, Yun Que can do it, right? Sertis also hates people who want to hurt Brother Su Ming."

"I'm going to sleep."

"This time... I won't do anything fun behind the backs of Sertis and Brother Su Ming."

4 month 27 day.

in the afternoon.

[A warning to all residents of Kuli Town: the Dead City has existed for 56 years. After a vote by the Imperial Capital Conference...if the witch leaves the Dead City again, there will be a chance to eliminate the harm of the Dead City in one fell swoop.]

[I will have the authority to activate the Infernal Fire Array. ]

[I will remember your death in my heart, and your contributions to the empire will be comforted... I promise that your relatives will be rewarded handsomely.]

Su Ming was wiping the blood from his nose and was stunned when he heard this.

What does it mean that your death will be remembered in our hearts?
You can just offer the sacrifice directly, but you still have to say something special... that is, you have to thank me?
"..."

There were wailing sounds everywhere, even Su Ming was bleeding from his nose, not to mention ordinary people. The air was filled with a pungent smell of blood.

"Don't carry me on your back... Go find Thetis!"

The same thing happened to An Shiyao on the back. Her nose was bleeding. Her chin and cheeks were covered in blood.

"Mr. Su Ming!"

"I said I don't want to be a burden."

"If you want to start a harem, just be obedient... okay? They all said that Mr. Su Ming would listen to his wife, just once."

"If you keep doing this, I'm really going to get angry. I can walk, it's just a little bleeding. I'll just find a place to hide for a while."

Perhaps, the reason why Setis became like this was An Shiyao.

It was right to put her here.

"Run, this is Mr. Su Ming's mission, right? Saving the world or something."

"There is no such thing as a hero who only cares about women. What I hate most when watching TV is the kind of thing where the protagonist has to put aside his mission to take care of the woman and then marry her after she sprains her ankle."

"You don't have to be a real hero. As long as Mr. Su Ming tries his best and doesn't regret it, that's fine. What I want to do is to hide behind the scenes when the male protagonist wants to do his best. If I can do something helpful, I will do it. If not, I will just wait obediently. Anyway, Mr. Su Ming will always go home when he is satisfied."

Sorry.

We agreed that in the two-player mode, I would take care of her as long as I entered the dream. So far, I haven't taken good care of her at all.

Su Ming didn't say anything else and left her in the empty shop. He left without looking back. From the corner of his eye, he could only see An Shiyao limping upstairs in the shop. She had a tail, so she didn't have to worry about anything bad happening at this time.

4 month 27 day.

in the afternoon.

[Unfortunately, the target is dead]

[Current node: 40860427:15.36]

First time loading a save file since coming here.

Pure white wings, or simply the ability to float, are simply not enough to reach the height of those people in the sky.

Su Ming still remembered that An Shiyao brought a unicorn. But that bird was also bleeding from its mouth, nose and eyes in the shed, and was extremely weak. It couldn't fly at all.

4 month 27 day.

in the afternoon.

[Unfortunately, the target is dead]

[Current node: 40860427:15.36]

【…】

the third time.

His body was affected by the pollution and he didn't have time to rush out of the city. God knows how far they cast the magic from.

Sertis didn't see it at all. She must be strong. If she really loses control... she will be even stronger, right?
The promised inferno only burned for a few minutes at most, and then it was gone. There was only one possibility... that Sertis arrived before him.

"Mr. Su Ming."

"If it doesn't work... I'll just give up..."

An Shiyao is quite hypocritical.

Before I loaded the game, I said I was a hero. Now I can run away after looking at my own expression.

Where do you think this is?
This is a game where I am the only player. An Shiyao can say that if she wants to have a harem, she can go ahead and do it... At this point, if I still can't do it, then I was born inferior.

"Yao, use all your remaining strength to get as far away from this town as possible."

"I have to show some real skills."

Why should we conserve our energy?
If you can't even see the people, the result of conserving your energy is that you can't reach your destination. It's better to go to where you need to go first and then think about the rest. If it's just a group of weak mages with low physical strength, even if there are no enchantments, pure white wings, no immunity, and even no sword master, ordinary people can still win by reloading the game.

Yao is very obedient.

Without asking why, he turned around and left without hesitation. There was no high blood pressure scene like "I won't leave if you don't leave" as seen on TV. In fact... Su Ming's conscience ached slightly because of her obedience. Later, he should really take the time to take her on a date here that was different and could be shown off.

4 month 27 day.

in the afternoon.

Su Ming arrived, just in the suburbs, no more than seven or eight kilometers away from the town.

Corpses were everywhere. They should have all been mages wearing robes when they were alive, but now they looked completely different... their flesh and blood had melted into a pool of black mud. It was hard to tell if the robes were originally pure white.

"..."

The smell of blood was so strong that it made people sick.

Sertis is not here. But she must have done all this.

It's hard to say whether the Empire has been prepared for magic used by hundreds of people... They will use it without hesitation as soon as they find an opportunity.

4 month 27 day.

in the afternoon.

Thetis was covered in blood, and her hair was also stained with blood.

"Wow..."

As soon as it came into contact with water, a lot of indescribable human tissue floated out of the water, and the color was polluted.

After killing those people, a new question emerged in her mind.

No one could kill her anymore.

After only a few minutes, the healthy trees and flowers around were all corroded, leaving only a few debris. It was completely out of control.

no offence.

But there is jealousy.

For example, I would become a monster here, either dying alone or living alone. But the woman beside him could get everything I envied as a matter of course.

Take it for yourself...

Dedicated to him...

The conflict between malice and good intentions was so great that Setis's cheeks twisted in pain.

When killing people, all I want to do is tear them apart.

That kind of disgusting picture...it will make people hate it if they see it.

It's said that a city was destroyed. Before I saw the scene, I didn't feel disgusted when I only saw my ordinary self. What about now?

His clothes were covered in blood.

Let the evil thoughts devour you. If the "monster" in your body will eventually devour you...

I have never had the choice before. I like him and want him to live. Live happily.

What if I hadn't come to this small town?
No.

At the beginning, I was not that kind of person, so the monster thought of imprisoning me in the dead city. Just like the woman who made me jealous, I wanted to turn my feelings into something else that I couldn't let go of. Rather than just wanting or being interested.

and so……

Decades of loneliness, sleeping, reading, eating the grass he talked about... In those days, before I met him, I often thought about finding a good day to die.

If you have experienced happiness beyond your cognition, you should take it for granted that wealth beyond your cognition will flow back in various ways as the book says. So does happiness. But compared to the loss of wealth, this kind of happiness...

"Clap."

Hear someone stepping on the dirt.

"Wow..."

Then the water around him began to ripple.

"The water is a little cold. Is it this cold originally, or is it because of you?"

"..."

Hearing voices you don't want to hear.

"Seti..."

"..."

Before Su Ming could finish his words, Sertis reached out and pressed him to the shore.

"You've decided to abandon her and come to me?"

"No."

"Then go. You're very interesting, but I should get back."

"All of them? I'm going to try to find out more about your cuteness. Well, actually, I think it's funny that you look down on me and act shy at the same time. As for Sertis during the day... I don't know about the little tricks she used, because they were too superficial. For example, deliberately bumping into me in the baby cafeteria, which is also cute... Ah, I never thought you like strong and spicy food. Aren't you constipated?"

"…If you don't leave now."

Sertis stared at the pieces of meat floating between Su Ming and her, lowered her head and gritted her teeth, "You can't leave."

"I might be good at dealing with jealousy. You see, Yao who is by my side used to be jealous as well. Now she is so generous that it makes me feel guilty."

"Come with me, we'll solve the problem."

"There is nothing to be afraid of. I promise to make you into my shape."

"..."

"You don't understand at all. I will lose control... I will be completely out of control because of jealousy and will tear people into pieces...!"

"like this!"

"..."

There was a scratch on Su Ming's neck.

"It didn't kill me, did it? It's such a shallow wound."

"The fact that you can restrain yourself because of me proves that you can change."

"Did you think I was joking when I said I would take my shape?"

"..."

"I'll kill her."

"No. Even if you can't control it, as long as you don't have the energy to think about her, isn't it okay? You can always control it."

"..."

Su Ming figured it out.

Why do I have to think about the abilities added in the game? Maybe Sertis is really strong after losing control, so strong that even I may need some time to defeat her.

But just like Tia, why does she need to actually fight?
She is weak on the other hand and very much herself.

【Favourability: 145】

[Description: He has an extreme fondness for you and an extreme possessiveness. His mood will fluctuate violently because of your every move, so please pay attention to the guidance]

Even the description says to pay attention to the guidance.

It all depends on how you do it.

"Sertis!"

"?"

The volume suddenly increased, and Sertis was visibly stunned.

"Give me a healthy baby! And by the way, give me a kiss. This is a clear desire, an undisguised desire."

"Su Ming, I told you, my body will... well."

"When you go back, you should also wear black stockings. The kind without holes."

She was really weak in this aspect. Su Ming didn't even need to think about anything, she could easily grasp it.

If this isn't a battle-oriented map, why bother with having to fight one?

"I will love you as much as I love Yao."

It just so happened that I didn't care about how to fight later and ran over. I just resisted her pollution to this extent...just enough to beat her. So, it's an extremely low difficulty.

(End of this chapter)