Chapter 242 I would like to ask you... Thank you
11 month 11 day.

Night.

Probably?

There was no one around, no noise... there was plenty of free time for me to think, and I could hear it.

【Double 11?】

【…】

[We should give them more gifts. I think I promised to give Xue'er something last time? ]

【…】

[Forget it, as long as you buy it, you should be happy. ]

[If you are willing to take action and do something as simple as adding the item to the shopping cart and entering the address, then you don’t even need to be born with love. Ahem.]

【…】

He wasn't thinking about my body all the time.

The word 'stir-fry', which can be associated with pushing me down on the bed, is definitely not a good word.

gift.

Is there anyone he misses?
It's not that I deliberately want to hear it.

It was because he spent too much time in the toilet, mumbling... no, I heard too many repetitive sentences.

【There's nothing to be ashamed of.】

[Why do you need to accumulate the stars? Just release them directly. 】

[Fifth sister is my first love who has always been with me. How can I be fickle?]

[Hiss, I can’t think… the universe and all things are dark yellow.]

[You can't hear it from this distance, right? ]

[Hurry up and solve it... Just think about it, sleeping on the same quilt, Xiaoye's white stockings, Yao's black stockings. ]

【…】

[Is it really E or even E+? It’s not long since he turned 18? ]

[Young people nowadays are really... Damn, I was riding a horse and only remembered that the baby cafeteria was dangling in front of me. I almost fell. ]

【…】

I don't know what he is doing.

But I knew he was thinking about women, trying to get some kind of emotion.

November 11th night.

late at night.

Still at the farmer's house.

The family of three was not abused except being tied up, and they were provided with food and water. He also agreed to go to the toilet.

"Sir, will you really let us go?"

"We don't want any money. You can eat or drink whatever you want. Please don't hurt my wife and daughter..."

"Am I like a robber?"

"..."

"Yes, I am a robber. But there are also moral principles for robbers. I will leave early tomorrow morning. Just keep the money and don't let it slip away, or you will get yourself into trouble."

I saw him pull up his trousers and come into the room.

Look him in the eye.

"..."

"Well, you keep watching...don't tell me you can hear it from across the room."

"They didn't make any noise. Yours was loud."

"I didn't say anything."

"..."

"Alright, I heard it. Anyway, I'm in sage mode now, so you can listen to it."

I saw him light up a cigarette and take a deep breath.

Cigarettes. I have never seen them before. Maybe they are only available in more prosperous places.

I have no future.

I can't skip the two or three years he mentioned to think about death.

"Married, does it mean you have signed a marriage agreement with someone?"

"Ah."

"Your wife has several names?"

"That's not something you should be asking."

"You love your wife very much."

"..."

"I hope you can really help."

"Don't want to live?"

"Ah."

"I'll consider it when I move to a stable place."

Move to a stable place?

Maybe someone like him really knows how to keep people alive without them even realizing it.

But I'm tired.

"Why did you go all the way to Roy Village to rescue me?"

"Didn't you say that there were alien species because of rumors?"

"..."

I wasn't going to sell it.

He didn't plan to do anything to me.

He just took me in like an orphan. He raced against the man who was chasing him because of me. Even he was offered a reward.

There must be something he wasn't trying to say to me, and I had no purpose in hearing it.

But I don't care anymore.

Tomorrow... or the day after tomorrow, or even later. When we can get to a new big town that looks prosperous enough, I will take action.

11 month 12 day.

early.

Su Ming followed his words and released the farmer's family of three. He originally planned to keep the gold notes, but after thinking about it, he decided to exchange them for silver notes of smaller denominations.

"If you have the chance, send your children to study in the city. Knowledge changes destiny."

Whether the farmers can understand it is his business.

11 month 12 day.

noon.

According to the farmers, the nearest town is the second one Su Ming had arrived at before. If he walks further north to reach the third one, it will take at least ten days to walk.

11 month 12 day.

Night.

"Hold the back of your head with your hands. Like this."

"One foot is good...swish, how many times have I said one foot?"

Arriving at the temporary station, Su Ming did not slack off. There was not much serious work for her to do at the moment, but that did not mean she could not find something to do.

She has poor running skills, isn't it good for her to exercise?
"Swish! Do it faster. What kind of push-ups are these at your speed?"

Su Ming really whipped her with the cane he had casually broken off, whipping her on the back without mercy.

"Can't open your eyes?"

"Want to sleep?"

"..."

"Go to sleep."

No matter how strong your emotions are, your body is still made of flesh.

If you stand at attention for a long time, you will want to sit down.

When you are tired from exercising, you will want to drink water and rest.

When you are tired, you will naturally want to sleep.

Looking at Noelia sleeping against a tree stump, her hair was dripping with sweat on her cheeks, outlining complicated patterns. Even in her sleep, her brows were furrowed.

“It’s quite pitiful.”

Shaking his head, Su Ming opened the cigarette box and took a look.

There are 12 left.

Half a year.

It hasn’t even been a month now.

11 month 14 day.

Continue on your way.

"If you're not an explorer, then what are you?"

"people."

"..."

“Freelance.”

"I want another piece of meat."

"Go do two more sets of push-ups and get them for yourself."

“There’s no place to take a shower here.”

"It's not me who's smelly. What does it matter?"

"..."

I saw her stand up silently, then lie on the ground and do push-ups.

Has the situation eased?
[Favorability-49]

[Description: They think you are very powerful, have a low level of trust in you, but do not have a strong desire to resist.]

Although the favorability is still negative.

But at least I just don't trust myself, and I don't plan to die again. Every time I reload the game, I'm tired. I'm tired.

Moreover, compared to the initial unwillingness to speak, he can now speak.

No matter where you are, people always need to communicate.

"finished."

"So fast?"

"..."

Seeing her reach out and take a piece of meat, swallowing it in large chunks, Su Ming lit a cigarette.

No one has caught up for so long.

After that, all you have to do is disguise yourself a little, walk away and find a place to settle down.

After the dust settles, I will come out to collect intelligence and look for an opportunity to meet the so-called Glory Explorer.

The Explorers Guild must also take some time to check it out... and the magic stone that was snatched in the city, which looks no different from the cobblestones in the Snow Country, but can drive a four-wheeled vehicle. It's just ordinary in my hand.

11 month 15 day.

Just as the farmer said, it was really far away.

After walking for several days, I didn't see any town or village. It was very desolate.

"Give me a squeeze on your shoulders."

"..."

[Favorability: -33]

However, Noelia's favorability is inexplicably improving.

No way?
It's impossible for her to like me, right? At most, after spending more time together, the negative impact of her previous threats of using her parents' sacrifice to heaven has been weakened. Yeah, this makes sense.

11 month 16 day.

in the afternoon.

"Did you see that group of merchants?"

"Wear a mask and stand in front of them. If you give them money, let them go. If not, put a knife to their necks."

Noelia was very obedient.

He immediately wrapped himself in rags and carried the dagger given by Su Ming over.

But of course the businessman hired bodyguards when he traveled such a long distance.

"Tsk, a female bandit? I've never seen such a thing before."

“Still alone.”

After confirming that there were no other ambushes around, the caravan members stood next to the guards with shining eyes.

He knew the dagger in Noelia's hand was very valuable. After all, Su Ming took it from the city lord's son.

"She has a nice figure too...Puchi!"

"?"

The fat-headed businessman hadn't even finished his words when his throat was pierced.

"Gu..."

He covered his throat in a daze, blood oozing out from between his fingers. His eyes widened.

Su Ming was quite satisfied at first.

I feel that Noelia has the talent of a ruthless and taciturn gangster.

"Pfft-"

Until he saw that Noelia didn't try to dodge the guards' attack and was stabbed. Blood was gushing out, and Su Ming was stunned.

He killed the guard almost at the cost of his own life.

The rest tried to escape, but Noelia didn't let any of them go.

The scene... was no different from the villain in the movies, chasing everyone and ripping them open.

"That's not necessary. If you want to take the money, just take it. If you want to silence me, just do it quickly."

"You didn't say."

There was an obvious long cut on her ribs near her stomach, and blood was gushing out.

I rummaged through the caravan carriage and found it was full of porcelain.

A caravan selling porcelain?

Turn it over again.

A small medicine bottle was found in the clothes of the guard's body, with words saying it was for healing.

"You've got this done, so you can't travel too fast from now on."

Seeing her cheek also covered in blood, her cold-blooded eyes were so calm that they looked like a robot.

Is that so?

It is impossible for her to be like an ordinary person anymore.

11 month 16 day.

Night.

The temperature seems to have dropped a bit and it's a little colder.

Su Ming drove the carriage he had robbed in the morning and asked Noelia to stay in the carriage to continue the journey. Now he was using the carriage as a temporary residence.

"I don't know, you don't want me to get hurt."

"It's not about whether I want it or not, it's just that normal people wouldn't exchange their lives for others like you did."

"I won't kill anyone." "?"

What to say?
What is the air in that village?

"Pet, is it worth caring about being injured?"

"I'm walking and bleeding all the way, you think it's too hard for them to find me, right?"

"..."

The firewood was burning with a crackling sound.

Su Ming had already stopped paying attention to the pursuers. He was probably far behind them.

Do you want to give her a hand?

It's very uncomfortable to stay in this twisted and heavy mood for a long time.

"Did you ever want to do anything? I mean dreams or something like that."

"……dream?"

"It's what I plan to do when I grow up. Work, or go somewhere and see the world."

"……No."

11 month 16 day.

late at night.

"Don't take a shower."

"You can wipe it with a cloth dipped in water, but don't soak it directly in water."

"..."

"Water getting on the wound will make it more difficult to treat."

Is it my imagination?

He is indeed strange.

From the beginning, it was obvious that he wanted to sell me as a commodity, and then he said directly that he didn't plan to sell me. He wanted to keep me as a pet. He would do it when he got tired of me.

What you say is always the opposite of what you think.

I know he minds me hearing his thoughts, so I didn't say anything the last few times I heard them.

Like now...

[What can motivate this guy? ]

【Beautiful clothes? 】

【gourmet food?】

【Comfortable environment...】

The longer we spend together, the less I understand what he is planning to do.

"Hey, I just told you not to get water on the wound."

"..."

He grabbed the wet cloth and wiped the wound for me.

He was thinking...

[It's quite deep, won't it get infected? ]

[You really don't even frown? It doesn't hurt? ]

[Girls of this age should be in college in real life. That's pretty miserable...]

I no longer have those weird thoughts I had before.

He no longer paid attention to my chest, even though his face was not far from it.

"Okay, you can handle the rest yourself."

"Finish it early and go to bed early, and continue the journey tomorrow. You can ride again when you feel better."

"..."

What I thought.

I was tortured, sold, or anything else... nothing happened. I was just well fed and well fed, even though he was very strict sometimes. I was also whipped.

If they were just pure businessmen, they wouldn't even consider what I said, "I don't want to feel alive."

Nor would they actually find something for me to do.

"What are you looking at me doing?"

"..."

I looked away.

Bad guy?

nice guy?

It doesn't seem to matter. To me, flowers are flowers and trees are trees.

I envy them very much.

No need to move, just stay there. No need to think about anything, because nothing can be changed... If someone picks it up or tramples it to death, it is impossible to resist, so from the beginning, you will not think about the consequences of being trampled to death, you will only think "well, I am dead".

My mother once warned me seriously that although she was anxious for me to get married, I must not accept anyone. If a man wanted to hold my hand or touch my body, I must tell him.

I've been touched.

But I think this may be something I don't need to tell my mother. After all, he is interested in me, but not interested. The fact that he rubbed me that day just proved that I was not born with impotence.

I suddenly felt curious.

What exactly does stir-fry mean?
If you push me down on the bed and plan to take the next step…what will be the next step?

"Why are you looking at me again? I can't sleep, so I'm going to do two sets... Never mind. I'll just tell you about my dream."

“…Stir-fry.”

"?"

He instantly took two steps away from me and looked at me again, "No, I didn't think about it at all this time."

"I didn't hear it either."

"..."

"I want to ask, what does it mean?"

"Flanking after the explosion. A tactic."

"That day, you pressed on me."

I pointed to my chest, "After we capture this, if we really want to do something, what will it be?"

"No ifs."

"Why do you feel..." when you see my breasts

"No ifs."

Doesn't he like this topic very much?

But that’s not what I meant to say.

"I do not like you."

"?"

"But you're a good man."

"No, this can also be used to get a good guy card???"

What is the Good Guy Card?
"So, what do you want to say?"

Ok.

What I want to say is.

"To me, you are a good person."

"I'm a good person, and then what?"

"People who like each other will form a relationship and do things you don't want to tell me."

"..."

"But I don't like you, so we won't be husband and wife."

"?"

"You can do anything to me, I'm willing to do it. Just consider it... as a reward."

Yes.

If he hadn't come, I wouldn't have been able to take revenge.

Regardless of their purpose, they are good people to me, and I should repay them.

"No, I don't understand what you mean... Hello? What are you doing?"

"..."

Surprised?
I was also surprised that I would feel inexplicably shy when a man saw my body completely and without reservation.

"I will not be your wife."

"Your wife won't know me either."

"This is to repay you."

Ok.

My parents used to tell me that people should distinguish right from wrong and stick to moral principles.

But I don’t want to think so much.

He helped me, and I was going to do something bad to him afterwards. That was the reward. Whatever was done to me that was ugly or painful, I was willing to do it.

“…Why is it so big?”

"It's natural. My mom said that I would be able to raise children well. Although I don't know why having big breasts makes it easier to raise children."

"..."

"You like breasts. Don't you want to touch them?"

"..."

I stepped in front of him, close enough to him, and closed my eyes, waiting for something to happen.

"So you want to know what will happen if I hold you down?"

But nothing happened.

The clothes were put on again.

"To put it bluntly, it's the steps to having a baby."

"But you just said that you don't like me, right? Do you think you can give birth to a child for me even if you don't like me?"

"..."

I have no such plans.

"There are many other ways to repay me. For example, learn how to barbecue earlier and let me become a real boss sooner."

uncle?

Doesn't he look very young?

Could it be that he is actually very old? A monster or something like that.

"Give me a lap pillow. And I'll tell you about your dream."

Knee pillow?

Oh.

Just put my thighs together, sit on the ground, so that he can sleep on my thighs? The hair is itching my belly a little.

"Button up your clothes. You don't need my help with that."

"..."

"The so-called dream is so small that if you want to eat meat, you have to catch prey, and then you have to find a way to remove the feathers and make a fire..."

"..."

“A person without a dream is no different from a salted fish. Of course, being a salted fish is actually a kind of dream.”

"..."

"It doesn't have to be a dream, an expectation is fine. Didn't your parents tell you what they want to see you become?"

Said.

They want to see me live happily and leave the village. Or find a man of my dreams and live a peaceful life in the village. Whenever I ask what I think is my dream, they say I am still young and will learn it slowly. It’s okay. But when I want to get close to a member of the opposite sex, I must tell them. They help me investigate and so on.

"It's not too late now. Let's find a good place to live a normal life later and take our time."

"Your parents definitely don't want you to live in a muddle, or even want to die. If you see your parents after you die... can you smoothly say that you can live because you don't want to live, and you don't want to live so you die?"

"If you die... you will be able to see him?"

"Aren't there any ghosts or gods here?"

"...You mean to become a spirit after death and be reborn."

"should be?"

"……Thank you."

I feel inexplicably calm.

I think that meeting such a strange and incomprehensible man in the end is probably one of the few good things that happened to me in my life, except for being picked up by my parents.

"Is just a lap pillow enough?"

"enough."

"I heard you. If you want to touch my breasts, just reach out. I won't refuse."

"…You can just pretend you didn't hear it."

"But I heard it. It kept making noises. It was so round, I couldn't see its face at all. I wanted to bury my face in it... Wow it would definitely be comfortable. Or something like that."

"With 'wow'?"

"Have."

"..."

"I have lost all my reputation here in my life."

"?"

What's shameful about this?

As he said, thoughts do not mean actions. In the past, sometimes I felt wronged when my parents misunderstood me as having stolen money, and I even thought about revenge... deliberately letting the chickens go. But I didn't do it.

Do I still have a conscience?

Killed those people during the day. But they didn't look like good people either. They seemed to be eyeing the dagger he gave me. The one with gems. And my body.

It turned out to be the case.

My body is probably attractive to men. There are many men in the village who always want to talk to me, but they are never as explicit as him or the caravans in the daytime. I couldn't hear them before.

Live a normal life and become what my parents hope to see me become with a smile?
I have no energy left. I just want to be a flower or a grass.

"Touch it."

"?"

"I want you to touch me. Thank you."

"you……"

It feels weird.

I also touch it when I take a shower, but it is completely different from the way his hands cover it. I can feel the heat of his hands and every subtle movement.

"I did it willingly."

"Even if you say so..."

"Knee pillow, if you need me to do it, I will do it until you are satisfied."

I am relieved.

If he really was just a businessman who was after my value, I would be relieved.

If he hadn't taken care of me. If he hadn't helped me so carefully after I was injured. I definitely wouldn't want to mistake him for a good person. The body seemed to have warmed up a little... Even if I'm an alien, not everything in the world is the same as in the village.

But, I'm sorry.

I really don't want to live anymore.

So, I can only go back on my words and do something that will make me a plant that I don't have to think about anymore.

(End of this chapter)