Chapter 19: Items have value because they are used

1 month 16 day.

Su Ming thought a lot.

For example, having a heart-to-heart chat with An Shiyao again.

Or, through An Xiaoxi, she changed her mind.

[I am a surgeon... My partner and I now live at Zhongxinhu Road, East Road, Haidao City, 34° 23′ 07″ north latitude, 132° 27′18″ east longitude. The specific address is the Fengming residential building that was left unfinished in the early years...]

[We have basic medical supplies, food, water...]

[… We have established protective measures within our capabilities. 】

[If any survivors hear the broadcast, unfortunately... we are unable to provide help, and you need to overcome the difficulties on your own. 】

[I hope...at this time, more and more people will hold together to keep warm. We will survive and find a way out. 】

But before that, the radio that everyone thought was useless started to move.

"It has the voice of a big sister~ That's great~"

An Xiaoxi's childish face couldn't hide her happiness.

"..."

However, An Shiyao's mood was completely different from her sister's.

"...You want to go?"

"Why don't you want to go?"

Stay in the staff room and talk alone.

"Xiao Xi and I...without your ability, we can go out..."

"I will protect you."

"Just stay here...can't you? With them, you are still a male...maybe..."

"Those are all solvable problems. Think about it carefully. If they stay here after hearing the news, if they are transferred or even rescued after a while, they will never know that we are here. How can we see other living people again? That’s difficult, are you sure you want to let this hard-earned opportunity go to waste?”

"..."

An Shiyao's body trembled violently and she raised her face, her eyes filled with tears.

The mind is very confused.

She didn't understand why the radio suddenly had a signal and so-called hope at this time.

"Maybe there are other children over there. Xiaoxi will be happy to have friends of the same age, right?"

"We can discuss things together. It's definitely better to stay together and stay warm than to be alone here."

"I'm going to explore the path first. With my strength, the distance isn't too far. I'm sure I'll be back within a day."

"..."

The female voice on the radio is very nice.

Is that so?

Eventually... I'll get tired of it.

He couldn't stay here peacefully forever. It is impossible and unnecessary to stay for your own strange ideas.

Cuddling together to keep warm?

"...Mr. Su Ming."

"Ok?"

"I have a question...you still haven't answered me."

"what?"

"Black stockings...you like them so much, do you like socks or legs?"

“Objects have value because someone uses them.”

Su Ming paused, "I remember answering you like this."

"There's really no need to be so uneasy. It's not me traveling alone this time, it's you, Xiaoxi and me who are traveling together."

"Last time you said how to protect people when they are not around. Is it okay to go out together?"

"...I'm sorry for saying...those things."

"Woo..."

An Shiyao's eyes were inexplicably blurred.

Why do you want to cry?

It wasn't because I finally heard the voice that I had been struggling to support here with my sister and wanted to hear in my dreams.

It's a fear.

More afraid than going out.

The emotion nearly took her breath away.

He did not abandon himself and his sister, and wanted to go together. The situation he had expected...to be abandoned would not happen.

This should be a good thing, but it's just sad.

"...You don't want Xiaoxi to stay here forever, do you?"

He stroked his hair.

"?" But An Shiyao was not satisfied with this.

Want... to ask for something that would make her feel at ease.

But I couldn’t figure out what it was.

It's as if he wants to turn the man in front of him... into one that belongs only to him and will never disappear.

But reason strongly refuted that what he did and said was right.

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1 month 17 day.

Mr. Su Ming set off.

I'm not depressed anymore...at least on the surface I'm not causing any more trouble.

For the sake of Mr. Su Ming's safety, I give my advice.

Mr. Su Ming is special. Although he is a male, he has no signs of infection... Even though I know this, the survivors who have never met him do not know and may shoot Mr. Su Ming as a male.

Hence the need for disguise.

"...It's so new. I've never dressed up as a woman in my life."

"No matter how you dress up, you can't really look like a woman in a short time, so... when you are asked, you have to say that you are transgender, or have transitioned. This way they will believe you based on the fact that you are indeed normal. Compared to Just say it’s a man and let them believe it like me, which will save a lot of trouble.”

"Thoughtful."

Mr. Su Ming seemed very satisfied with the idea I came up with for him.

"Hehe~ Big brother is also wearing the same skirt as Xiaoxi, he is snoring~"

If I could be like my sister and not have to think about things too much...wouldn't I be more lovable?

"Xiao Xi, don't lift Mr. Su Ming's skirt casually."

"But big brother looks like he's having fun~"

"..."

"Wow! So high!"

Seeing that Mr. Su Ming seemed to be in a good mood, he picked up his sister... and was very happy.

Should I fit in too?
While packing Mr. Su Ming's backpack, I discovered that the pistol... was very heavy in my hand. Along with the gun is a gun clip, which is for police use.

I know that Mr. Su Ming went to the Inspectorate and took it from the waist of the dead inspector.

He also used this gun to attract the murderers who gathered in the supermarket at that time.

"I'm leaving. I promise I'll be back before dark. It's just over thirty kilometers away..."

"Be happy, it's really not that far away. And as long as we confirm that the shelter is safe and pick you up... you will never be able to support yourself like before. That day... I came back injured and scared you. terribly sorry."

"...It doesn't matter, it's me who's causing trouble for you...I'm obviously running for Xiaoxi and me, but I'm like that."

"I won't mention the previous things. I have a feeling it will be good news this time, just wait... By the way, the leggings you put on me are your own, right? Doesn't it look weird?"

"Hmm... not surprising."

I do all the makeup.

As for why he wore mine...who knows. Just when I was choosing, I accidentally discovered that Mr. Su Ming could also use my size. It's a universal size, so it doesn't matter if your body shape isn't too outrageous.

As I watched Mr. Su Ming leave after finishing dressing up, I became increasingly depressed.

Feeling uncomfortable... holding my chest, wanting to vomit.

"Sister...and eldest brother are lovers?"

"……Eh?"

Going out, he was stopped by his petite sister.

"Humph, my sister kept lying to me and said that she and her elder brother were discussing things that children should not listen to, but Xiaoxi is not a fool... Xiaoxi just asked her elder brother to confirm."

"Big brother told Xiao Xi! They are lovers~ Humph, Xiao Xi also saw the way my sister secretly kissed big brother just now!"

"..."

I stood still, at a loss.

Lover?

"But... in this case, should Xiao Xi call her eldest brother and brother-in-law? If the eldest brother and sister get married in the future, will they always play with Xiao Xi? Hehe~ That's great! Tell Xiao Hua and the others when they get back, Xiao Xi I have a super awesome brother!”

Why...tell your sister that you are your lover?

If he really regarded himself as a velvet ball and didn't play with his sister to make her happy... he wouldn't have become so dependent on him.

But there is no if.

I don't understand what's going on, it's like I'm in a dead end... Suddenly I hear a completely different train of thought, and the emotions that I couldn't find the right place to release before... suddenly have an awkward but real outlet to vent.

So... does that mean that I have fallen in love with Mr. Su Ming? Because of this, I no longer hate Mr. Su Ming for doing anything to me...On the contrary, I will take the initiative to ask for it, hoping that he will always be by my side.

is this real?
I do not know.

Moreover, I don’t know whether he was lying to his sister or something else.

The only thing that is clear is that we are leaving here.

Objects are given value because someone uses them. Objects have no right to decide whether they are valuable. Objects that have the ability to think independently... will only be disliked by others.

(End of this chapter)