Chapter 195 Yuan Xia begins to awaken

After Jiang He uttered the words "clear", he was obviously stunned for a moment.

His and Yuan Xia's fates are intertwined, so how can he make such a straightforward decision?

The sin is too great to be redeemed.

The most devastating thing was that the person he abused was someone he had deep feelings for, his apprentice who had been with him for more than ten years.

When you wake up from the dream, the mistake has already been made.

However, instead of continuing to torture each other, it is better to let go.

Yuan Xia hated and feared him, but because she was deeply trapped in the shadows, she bowed down to him.

Jiang He saw it clearly.

In his interactions with the other two apprentices, Jiang He no longer always wanted to have everything in his hands and was self-righteous in being nice to them.

He also wanted to correct Yuan Xia, but was the path he had set for her necessarily the right one?
In this dark world, good people are often oppressed, while evil people are rampant.

He didn't want Yuan Xia to stay in the Shanfa Temple, so he wanted her to stay away from the Shengan Sect and various evil sects and live in seclusion with him.

But is this right?

With Yuan Xia's innate soul and physique, there are countless people coveting her.

Not to mention those far away, Xiao An who was beside her wanted to use her soul fetus to sacrifice the sword.

Without the protection and resources from the Divine Sense Religion, how could Yuan Xia contend with Xiao An?
"Both are clear."

The dark-haired girl was caught off guard, her heart still beating wildly and her body still in pleasure.

But her blood ran cold and she murmured subconsciously.

Why would Master say that we are even? He has been so good to me, why would he say such things?

"Yuan Xia, you have always hated me. You have always been afraid of me and feel uncomfortable when you are around me. I know and understand."

Jiang He smiled bitterly. Yes, she should have hated him and even wanted to kill him.

"In this case, you don't have to acknowledge me as your master, and I can't teach you anything. Of course, even if we are not master and apprentice, Minxin and Jin'er can still meet you, and I will still help you."

After saying this, Jiang He felt relieved.

But he unexpectedly saw the aggrieved look on Jiang Yuanxia's face.

Her eyes were full of confusion and loss, like a fawn returning home but being turned away.

Her lips were bitten until they turned white, and then they were stained with a hint of rouge.

He twisted his hands unwillingly, tears welling up in his eyes but refusing to fall.

Whenever Yuan Xia wanted to cry, she would either not dare to cry or she would just cry.

Never before have I been so stubborn as I am today, trying not to let my tears fall.

What does she mean?
Don't you hate yourself? Why do you look so aggrieved when you want to let go?

It makes people feel distressed and puzzled.

Does she act like this because she still wants to stay by his side and be his apprentice?

But what is this for?
The black-haired girl's pupils trembled, followed by her lips and body.

She couldn't believe it and didn't want to believe it.

So he asked, "Master, do you know that I hate you?"

Although she was so respectful, the master could still see what she was thinking.

If that’s the case, why does he pretend to know nothing and pretend to be a kind master and a filial disciple?

To her, a traitor who had once killed him with her own hands, a traitor who still had no good intentions.

So gentle?

He was clearly not the pervert who had tortured them, so why would he be so self-righteous as to take the blame?
Yuan Xia has already forgiven Master. It's just that Yuan Xia is a lunatic, so Master can't be blamed.
"People are often confused by what they are doing. You tremble when you see me, kneel down at the slightest provocation, and get goose bumps when I touch you. These behaviors are written all over my face."

Jiang He was quite helpless and bitter. He spread his hands and said,

"Actually, I'm more confused. If you hate me so much, why do you still recognize me as your master?"

The black-haired girl's trembling eyes seemed unable to focus.

She clenched her fists tighter and harder, opened her lips, and then closed them in silence.

It was as if he wanted to say something but didn't dare to.

Whether it is disgust, fear, self-blame, guilt, or submission, dependence and many other morbid emotions.

It was as if dense silk threads were entangled around her.

She has long been dependent on her master.

But how can she say it? How can she explain it clearly? How dare she explain it clearly?
Jiang He suddenly remembered the style of the Shen Gan Sect, and he hesitated:

"Could it be that, Yuan Xia, you stayed by my side because you wanted to stab me when I was off guard and about to succeed, just like you did four years ago? It is true that this would make me more painful, but at this critical moment, there is no room for any mistakes."

"Yuan Xia, I'll die if I want to. But have you ever thought about how this will affect Min Xin and the others? Now that you've grown up and are no longer under the control of the Snake Lord, you can't be as willful as before."

It's not like this!

Jiang Yuanxia was extremely anxious, so anxious that he was about to go crazy.

I wanted to kneel on the ground and apologize, and gently kiss the soles of his feet to show my submission.

But his body seemed to be out of control and he sat stiff in the chair. He even began to lose his voice and had difficulty making any sound when he opened his mouth.

This shouldn't be the case.
This is what my master was thinking of me.

But it makes sense.

I hate my master so much, why can't my master think of me in this way?
She did so many things that were against the will of heaven and difficult for herself to accept.

The murder of his master caused Minxin to break the ban, and Jiner was tortured for four years.

At the same time, they committed indiscriminate killings and tortured others.

She must have been a poisonous woman.
Why do I still want my master to think that I am a good disciple? Maybe Minxin and the others also see me that way.

Thinking of this, Jiang Yuanxia suddenly understood.

No wonder Min Xin planted a trace of intention in his master. After discovering that he had disappeared, he immediately came to find his master with the killing magic weapon.

And my first reaction was to think that I was in Master’s room.

This is to guard against me, they all dislike me.

The painted wall in my heart collapsed, and the panic and timidity blocking the outside rushed into my heart.

"Woo. Woo."

Jiang Yuanxia narrowed her eyes slightly, and the tears that she had held back with great difficulty suddenly fell like pearls from a broken string.

She didn't explain, but looked at Jiang He silently with tears in her eyes.

Even though the body is still in the afterglow of the climax, the heart is cold.

Jiang He knew that his words were too harsh, but this was no small matter.

He didn't want the scene that happened four years ago to happen again. At that time, he still had the Yuhua Formation to rely on, but now he had no way out.

Maybe Yuan Xia usually behaves obediently.

But four years ago she was also very obedient, and still had murderous thoughts lurking in her heart, which eventually gave the Snake Lord an opportunity to take advantage of her.

Now that Yuan Xia has been in Shanfa Hall for four years, it is even more difficult for Jiang He to guess her complicated inner world.

Even though she might not really think so, things that need to be made clear still need to be made clear.

"I don't blame you. If I were you, I would cut you into pieces a thousand times, let alone just one cut."

Jiang He originally wanted to wipe her face with a handkerchief, but this handkerchief had traces of wiping Min Xin just now.

Just as he withdrew his hand, the black-haired girl covered his wrists with both hands as if she was afraid of losing something, and looked at him with tearful eyes, but said no word.

Jiang He paused, reached out his other hand, and wiped her eyes with his rough thumb.

"Master, don't you want Yuan Xia anymore?"

She finally spoke, crying like an abandoned kitten.

"You have never been an object, and you should never be wanted by others."

"I don't understand." Jiang Yuanxia's eyes were dim for a moment, and she forced herself to suppress the desire to use her ghost hand.

Only now did she realize that she could not lose her master.

anyway.

He will spend his whole life to repay what he owes himself.

And what I owe him must be repaid with a lifetime of service.

Yes.

She was originally a vicious woman who would do anything to achieve her goals, the witch of the Hall of Good Law.

And being the master's disciple, there is no conflict at all.

but,
The master is not the master, he should not spend his whole life to repay
Jiang Yuanxia's head seemed to be exploded by endless conflicting thoughts. After the intense pain, everything was silent.

Only one voice remained:
Ah
If it was him, or still him, then he deserved to be locked up by her.

Yuan Xia was born to take care of the master, whether the master is willing or not.
This girl is more fragile than I thought.

But he had made it clear, Yuan Xia would not really do anything to Min Xin and Jin Er.

It’s not that Jiang He is worrying over nothing.

In the original text, the three sisters were separated from each other because they were in different sects.

In addition to coincidence, they were valued by the leaders of different sects.

The most important thing is Yuan Xia, who almost boiled Jin'er alive with spiritual fire when she was bathing her.
Causing a rift in the relationship.

Although Yuan Xia is now a little more sober than in the original text, his mind is still confused and distorted.

Her black crystal eyes became dim and her face looked ashen.

His skin was originally so pale that it lacked blood color, and now it looked even sicker.

Yuan Xia's psychology is too sensitive, just like Min Xin's physical condition.

"Silly girl, I'm just saying, if you don't want to acknowledge me, you don't have to. If you still want to be my apprentice, I'll be happy."

Jiang He held her cold little hand and comforted her.

The black-haired girl looked at him silently, having already burst into tears.

Worried about waking Minxin up, she sobbed silently.

This is different. The master should keep his disciple firmly by his side, and should never let go, no matter the disciple is willing or not.

"If I don't become Master's disciple, won't Master be upset?"

"Master and disciple, it should be a mutual consent. There is nothing we can do even if it makes us feel uncomfortable. There is nothing we can do."

"Since it would be painful, Master shouldn't have asked. Regardless of whether Yuan Xia agrees or not, even if Master thinks Yuan Xia doesn't want to be a disciple anymore, Master shouldn't have asked. Just break Yuan Xia's legs directly."

"Uh, silly girl, what nonsense are you talking about." Jiang He was stunned. Could this girl be serious?

"Well, it was Master who spoke nonsense first, so Yuan Xia can't be blamed."

The black-haired girl smiled slyly and said,

"Don't worry, at least this time, I won't let Master down, I swear."

Jiang Yuanxia came out pretending to be calm.

The sky and the earth seemed to be shaking, and the houses seemed to be twisting.

All the sounds in my ears turned into sharp buzzing sounds, my eardrums felt like they were being torn apart, and my brain was churned into a turbid state.

Just like the day when we were besieged in the inn, the world began to fall apart.

She didn't remember how she came out of her master's room, nor did she remember what she had just said.

But she felt like a kite.

It was originally tied to Master's wrist, but now it was draped lazily around Master's finger. The next moment, Master would casually let it go and it would float up into the sky.

Stay away from Master and Junior Sister.

Without them, what would be the point of surviving until now?

What supported her was no longer the blood feud between her parents. Since the Snake Lord became a human dog, it allowed her, a broken girl, to survive in this world.

It’s Master and Junior Sister.

Arriving at the room, Jiang Yuanxia closed the door carefully.

The little girl and the blonde were sleeping soundly, both sleeping like little pigs, not noticing anyone had left.

The former had her white and tender belly exposed, while the latter was sleeping in a sprawling position.

The black-haired girl pursed her lips and walked to the bedside like a zombie.

"Clang."

My calf accidentally hit the foot of the bed.

Although she had long been accustomed to the pain, at this moment she was like an ordinary girl, with cold sweat all over her face and curled up in bed in pain.

She first glanced at the two girls, and seeing that they were still fast asleep, she dared to hug herself while sobbing softly.

It took a long time before she stopped sobbing.

Her messy black hair covered her empty eyes, her lips were black, and her beautiful face was so pale that she looked like a female ghost.

My head hurts.
Can't stand it.
She couldn't help but look at Jin'er's belly, her white and tender belly rising and falling slightly with her breathing.

Does Jin'er also doubt herself? Like Minxin, she doesn't believe in herself.

But she clearly would rather die than hurt them.

I will definitely not hurt them.

Jin'er is so important to me.

Her ears were filled with inexplicable, indecipherable murmurs, and before she knew it, her hand was on Jiner's belly.

There was a dark light between the fingers, which seemed cold and temperatureless, but in fact it could melt everything.

The towering immovable ape was once transformed into blood rain by this spiritual light.

What's more, Jin'er is petite and defenseless.

They all betrayed me, even though I loved them so much.
The black-haired girl's lips became darker.

She suddenly woke up, and frantically grasped the spiritual light in her palm, letting her palm become bloody.

The intense pain brought her back to her senses.
"Woo."

Jiang Yuanxia continued to curl up in bed, with a splitting headache.

She hugged the quilt and sniffed it, but she still couldn't find the original feeling.

This is not Master's quilt.
She remembered something and struggled to take out a talisman pen from her bosom.

He brought it to his nose with trembling hands and sniffed it carefully.

It was like taking addictive drugs. My whole body trembled and I inhaled all the smell into my lungs. Finally, I felt so comfortable that I let out a long breath, causing my lungs to lose all air and become squeezed into a ball.

The collapsing world and the indecipherable whispers gradually faded away.

Master Yuan Xia can't live without you.
Also, it’s not enough. Absolutely not enough!

She arched her body and slowly passed the talisman pen under her body. After groping for a moment, her body stretched as tight as a bowstring, she raised her slender neck, stretched her toes as far as she could, and then suddenly relaxed.

"call"

The black-haired girl let out a long breath, and after a long time, her white eyes returned to normal.

The painful thoughts were cleared away, and only the joyful chants remained in my mind.

What does it feel like?
Her limited imagination made it impossible for her to think about what it would feel like if it were her master.

The black-haired girl couldn't help swallowing and continued to move the talisman pen with difficulty.

".?"

My stomach is so cold.
In the darkness, a pair of large eyes with distinct black and white blinked in confusion.

(End of this chapter)