Chapter 304

On Christmas Eve, Zero finished getting ready for bed and lay down on his bed, letting out a slow breath, allowing the waiter to calm the joy and excitement that was still in his heart.

"…It feels like a dream."

She placed her hand on her chest, resting her head on the bed and looking at the ceiling above, she muttered something to herself in her head, trying to calm her rapid breathing, but her heartbeat was faster and more intense than usual.

But she could feel that the rapid heartbeat was not due to anxiety, but because of happiness.

At midnight tonight, Ling finally talked to He Zhuo, the person she had a crush on, and said everything she had wanted to say to him for so many days. They understood each other, or in other words, they finally achieved their goal... sort of. Although they just confessed their feelings to each other, it was not a matter of marriage or further development.

But, even if it's just that.

Ling, who doesn't care about anything and doesn't cling to anything, only wants Zhuo to stay by his side. He only wants to cherish him and be cherished by him. Even if another girl approaches Zhuo, or something unexpected happens in the future, Ling doesn't intend to give Zhuo up.

So, there is no problem even if you say that it is a successful outcome.

Moreover, even if something really happened, or someone liked Zhuo, as long as the other party did not express it clearly and convey it directly to Zhuo with words, Zhuo would deny this matter in his heart - Ling had a deep understanding of this matter.

After all, the other person is the cautious and nervous Zhuo, or you could say he is timid... Because he lacks confidence and thinks he is not likable enough, he will cut off the idea of ​​"being sentimental" at the source in order to protect himself.

This is what Zhuo has been doing.

Since Ling made up his mind and was taken back by Zhuo, Ling has been trying to get close to Zhuo and trying to express his current wishes in a subtle way. But he always turns a blind eye at the critical moment, or in other words, he is not frank enough.

Ling understood that Zhuo was feeling inferior, so he subconsciously denied the matter in an attempt to cover it up.

She had read about this kind of mood in a book - avoidant personality.

Of course, Zhuo's avoidance is not directed at things and troubles, but because he is cautious and timid... Faced with the love conveyed to him, there is always a voice in his heart that keeps reminding him that "people like me are not likable."

Because of this, if someone only has a half-hearted impression of Zhuo, and approaches Zhuo and tries to please him with the thought of "this person is pretty good, let's try dating him", Zhuo will most likely not realize it.

In terms of liking Zhuo, Ling believes she is no less than anyone else. The two years she spent with him and those difficult memories gave her such confidence.

It's really fate that plays tricks on us.

"I'm not the type that people like," is what Ling said to Zhuo during their first formal conversation.

As it turns out, this sentence didn't work for Ling, but Zhuo kept this sentence secretly in his heart for so many years.

Fortunately, Zero is not a dull person. She just didn't care and was not interested in the past. She is not dull or stupid. On the contrary, she is very smart, even a genius.

The day she was on the yacht, Zhuo approached her a little to test her, and Ling quickly understood what Zhuo wanted to express.

In her later life, she was vaguely aware of Zhuo's affection for her.

Moreover, she also believed that... she had a special place in Zhuo's heart. After all, on the night when Zhuo came to pick her up, that is, the night when he slept on her lap, Zhuo unconsciously called her name 634 times in his sleep. She must be sure of this.

Honestly.

Even so, before Zhuo expressed it clearly, Ling was still afraid that Zhuo would choose to escape again.

That's why she hoped so desperately that Zhuo could clearly say the word "love".

The result is of course perfect, so perfect that there is no flaw at all.

The first is that when Zhuo heard his request, he said those words without any pause. He must have secretly said it countless times in his heart, so he was so familiar with it.

After all, even she felt her face burning when she said that.

Fortunately, I was hiding on her shoulder at the time and was not seen.

Love between a man and a woman was the first thing Zero had experienced in her life of nearly thirty years. In fact, it was also the first time that she had developed a desire to love and possess someone exclusively. She had no thoughts of sharing or showing off. One could even say that she wanted to hide all of this in the safest place and keep it all to herself.

Zero felt that everything that happened today was just like a dream that was too beautiful.

There were too many twists and turns, but judging from the result, it can be said that everything is fine. After all, they have confessed their feelings to each other, and from today on, they have a clear reason to monopolize each other. In this way, Zero is confident that he will not lose to anyone.

Secondly... Zhuo understood her meaning perfectly and hugged her. It was no different from before, his embrace was warm and comfortable, and only in this way could she say those words properly.

But she also found a problem.

No! It should be said that Zero realized that he had overlooked one thing.

She should have thought of it earlier.

But when Ling fell into Zhuo's arms, it was too late. At that moment, she felt that every hair on her body stood up, and she couldn't use any strength at all. Her chest was swollen and her head was dizzy.

This wasn't the first time this had happened, and she should have known better.

Since my body was awakened by Zhuo, I am naturally waiting for Zhuo as well.

Zero really didn't expect his body to become like this.

Because she was almost raped by Anthony in public on the night she left Black Swan Harbor, she hated being touched by others since she was a child, even indirect contact. She felt disgusted, uncomfortable and angry.

But all this changed when she faced Zhuo. Zhuo seemed to be grabbing the flesh on the back of her neck, and Ling herself became a little kitten at his disposal.

Ling knew that Zhuo had no awareness of this at all, but that was also why Ling felt even more ashamed.

...But some things can't be avoided.

After all, they lived in the same house.

Zhuo is in the energetic adolescence, so even if... Ling can understand. Having said that, Ling still has concerns if he really wants to take that step now, or tonight.

Of course, Ling didn't hate Zhuo, and he had no intention of leaving Zhuo. It could be said that until the moment Zhuo hated him, Ling had no intention of leaving his side.

Just imagine what might happen tonight and what the future will be like, joy, anticipation, and an itchy emotion will keep flowing out from the bottom of my heart, both warm and uneasy... But overall it is definitely willing, or expected.

So, rather than saying it’s Zhuo’s problem, it’s more about oneself.

Because now her own reactions are as if she is a person with strong desires, and Ling has no way to explain it. After all, she herself has such a strong desire to be attached to him, and her body does not listen to her at all, and it turns against her without any scruples. This is absolutely not okay.

Although there was no one else in the room at the moment, Zero still buried his face in the quilt as if trying to cover up his mistakes.

She began to imagine their future together - although it was embarrassing, she couldn't stop imagining it and it filled her with happiness.

Zero imagined that happy world, full of dazzling expectations - a happy world he had never imagined.

...The final result was that when Zhuo came back, Ling was still covered in the quilt. She could clearly hear the footsteps approaching on the floor, coming straight towards her. Then he gently pulled the quilt covering her face. Fortunately, Ling had anticipated it and held on tightly even though she was hiding in the quilt, so it was not pulled away.

After that, he called Ling twice softly, but Ling did not respond. Ling tried to get away with it this way.

Sure enough, Zhuo went back and returned to the makeshift spring bed.

Should it be said that it was trust in Zhuo or Ling's own confidence? Even if she expressed her rejection in such a secret way, Ling knew clearly that Zhuo would not be angry and would not let go of her hand - she was so sure.

She believed that Zhuo could understand her.

Having said that, when sleeping, Ling was still so scared that he huddled to one side, not daring to move.

Just thinking about her body's reaction was shameful and outrageous enough. This was their first night as a lover, and Zero hoped it would pass quickly.

But sooner or later that day will come.

Zero imagined such happiness, gently closed his eyes, and fell into the world of dreams.

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ps: It never rains but it pours. The last book was pirated, which was awesome. Then, this book was pirated again.

If you are not a brother, you still pirate it for only 200 yuan?
Why did I stop wanting to write my last book halfway through?
Oh~! Annoying.

(End of this chapter)