Chapter 302: Deep Love

If I really count, I have lived for many years. I dare not say that I understand many things, but at least I believe that I can see myself clearly.

All these years.

I have always tried my best to control myself from falling in love with others, because the chances of them falling in love with me are extremely low. It is because I know myself too well that I have become what I am now.

——Utsunomiya Shuo.

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"I can't do this...I'm sorry."

"Hmm...eh?"

"I can't be like Yamamoto Yurina... I can't seem to express my feelings, and can only say words that make you feel heavy."

Ling has always been very clear about her special identity and what her past represents. She has always been careful about what she says and does, and dared not cross the line and make decisions for Zhuo. Now, she is forced to hide in the shadows and witness with him the clichéd plot in public, where Yamamoto Yurina devoted herself without reservation, which is really enviable.

Of course, Zero remembered the girl named Yamamoto Yurina, especially after tonight, he would probably never forget her.

In fact, Zhuo had already mentioned Yamamoto Yurina to Ling. But this time was different. Yurina said that she would confess to Zhuo tonight, and said that she knew she would fail, but still hoped that Ling could witness it.

Zero was silent.

Although Zero did not agree with this matter, she had no reason or position to deny the decision.

The performance was wonderful, although Zhuo didn't move at all throughout like a handsome fool (zero perspective).

But the girl's last sincere smile ended in Zero's heart.

All bystanders can see from Yamamoto Yurina the desire to burn herself but not to burn Zhuo, only Zhuo does not notice it.

Yurina Yamamoto was so amazing that it surprised Zero that she succeeded.

And she did all this with just a smile, a real yet disguised smile. She knew very well how to treat clumsy people and smart people.

So Zhuo didn't know what Yurina was going to do.

But Zero understood.

This way of exiting with sincere blessing was too beautiful and memorable. Maybe Zhuo didn't understand it now, but he would figure it out one day... and when that day comes... Ling remembered that he had read a book by Eileen Chang called "Red Rose and White Rose"... Then Yamamoto Yurina who left this scene would become the white rose in Zhuo's heart.

This made Ling feel panic and powerless.

Unlike herself, Yamamoto Yurina is an ordinary person despite her outstanding appearance and wealthy family.

And Ling understands what kind of life Zhuo likes.

That ordinariness was exactly what he was pursuing.

If in the future... no need for ifs. There will definitely be all kinds of things happening in the future. Once Zhuo and I are really together, Zhuo will owe a huge favor. He is not a despicable person, so he will inevitably get involved in many things that he is unwilling to participate in in order to repay this favor.

This is something that Zero knows.

It was precisely because she knew that she felt guilty... because she had never thought of stopping there, but was rather eager to speak out her heart completely, even if it would be a burden.

Zero once again realized how bad he was.

Once love begins,
Desire begins to build.

They live in the chest cavity.

Growing wildly at night,
It never stops.

……

Seeing Ling raise his head and speak calmly, Zhuo understood what he was feeling guilty about.

Now, hearing her mention Yurina, it means that Zero also saw that scene, which will obviously cause confusion. After all, he accepted the spring flowers sent by Yurina. "Well, I also know that the future will definitely be bad, but I still refuse to leave..."

"W-what do you mean?"

"Aren't you angry? I was standing by but didn't step forward."

"Uh...I don't seem angry."

"Is this so..."

Zhuo felt that it was his wrong attitude that led to this incident. In short, it was his fault. It was precisely because Ling confessed that he had also seen that incident that Zhuo became more determined. He did not want this incident to be misunderstood.

And Ling didn't hide anything, so Zhuo didn't feel disgusted at all.

Therefore, Zhuo was also ready to attack Ling.

He took a deep breath and looked into Zero's eyes - and Zero also looked at him at this time, those eyes were clearer and calmer than usual, so peaceful that it took one's breath away.

"Yurai Yamamoto likes you."

“Oh?… Yeah, I know. I’m sorry, but…”

"Remember what I asked you before?"

"……what?"

Before Zhuo could express his feelings, Ling suddenly mentioned Yamamoto Yurina again. Zhuo's first thought was to make things clear, so after a brief pause, he regrouped and prepared to break through like a plum blossom, like an orchid, like a bamboo, like a chrysanthemum...

...In the end, Ling always took the lead. Before Zhuo could sort out his thoughts, she spoke again, and she couldn't stop talking. She said completely those words that should have been said by the man - Utsunomiya Zhuo.

She looked into Zhuo's eyes seriously.

"Remember what I asked you before?"

Then he retracted his gaze and looked to the other side.

“I ask you, do you know everything?

"My time has been suspended long ago. Something was shattered the day before yesterday. From then on, the sky never cleared up and I was frozen.

"I don't feel sorry for it, nor do I think of dying for it. I'm just waiting. Waiting for it to break... or for me to break..."

Zhuo listened to Ling's calm monologue with his mouth open, and the words that were about to burst out of his throat were swallowed back again. He didn't know what to say.

"The world is really big," Ling seemed to be sighing. She used the word "like" because even now, her voice still has no obvious ups and downs. "Using kindness to understand the world will make the world so pure and beautiful."

She suddenly exhaled, the sound was obvious, like a feeling of relief.

It made Zhuo feel that she seemed to have suddenly come to her senses. Although he was not sure, he was happy in his heart.

then.

Ling suddenly looked at Zhuo with a very direct look, a feeling that could not be expressed in words. Zhuo, who was looking at him, had a vague feeling that he had no way out. And Zhuo felt that those eyes without any fluctuations seemed to be smiling.

But she clearly had no expression and no tone of voice.

"I can't be like her, so I wanted to ask you to look at the stars tonight, but you didn't come..."

"Yes, I'm sorry..."

"I'm not blaming you." Ling shook his head, "This is not your fault. I just feel sorry for Xingxing."

(End of this chapter)