Chapter 46 I don’t know

What is the so-called normal love?

An Shiyao has no experience and has never thought about applying the worldly concept of love to herself.

Everyone has more or less differences in ideas.

After leaving Sea Island City six years ago, it took a long time to barely recover. It was impossible for my sister, who was only eleven or twelve years old at that time, to fully reproduce everything she had experienced and the changes in her mind.

To find information related to him. Later, I slowly explained to my father from my own perspective what kind of person he was.

In fact, you can totally see it.

I was very angry when I heard from my daughter that she was initially forced to take advantage of her by a man. It just didn't happen and was hidden.

An Shiyao didn't care what others thought.

go on.

Keep talking about sweetness, agreement, completely... just like those love-minded girls who looked down on when I was in private high school.

frank.

It is my wish to have children.

It is also my wish to get married.

It is also my wish to satisfy him.

'So, return it...those messages were left by him to encourage you. '

still remember.

Father let out a long sigh. The wrinkles on my forehead become very clear.

'He's a man. That's right, I can almost understand why you are obsessed with him. '

'after……'

'If you need any help from me, just ask. '

Can it be considered a small happiness?

If he is still alive and returns to the family with him, he says that he doesn't care what his family thinks, but if he can live in harmony with his sister without any conflicts. Isn't that a good thing?
He begged his father many times to take his body back.

But the result is that it is gone and has been disposed of.

I can think about it with my head. Mr. Su Ming may be the only man with self-awareness in Haidao City, so of course... he has important value. Money is not worth mentioning in the face of national justice.

Worry about gain and loss.

I must be able to witness the burial of the body, so I won't hallucinate.

But in other words, without hallucinations... would I really have survived until now?

It’s no longer possible to trace back to how I swallowed my jujube and barely regained my mobility a few years ago.

So, what now?

She looks exactly the same as Mr. Su Ming. According to common sense, there is no possibility at all. Even if Mr. Su Ming is still alive... he would still be in his 30s now.

Grit your teeth.

Ask...do you have a boyfriend?
reason?

"What nonsense are you talking about? This is a staff talk, not asking you to inquire about Mr. An's personal problems."

The assistant noticed the change in An Shiyao's expression and was startled.

He quickly put on a stern tone and winked, "Just do what you have to do."

"……etc."

An Shiyao raised her face and looked straight at Su Ming.

"?"

Hearing An Shiyao's calm tone, the little assistant's heart was in her throat, and she scolded Su Ming ten thousand times.

Don't commit suicide while you are here!
"……never thought about."

"?"

The assistant was stunned.

Miss An actually answered directly?

"That means no more. Haha, Mr. An is focused on his work... This company may prosper because of Mr. An's arrival."

Su Ming originally had another sentence.

No?

What do you think of me?
But the words came to my lips but I couldn't say them. The atmosphere, I really have thoughts about An Shiyao in reality, then I should develop feelings first like I did when I picked up the female college student yesterday.

But the two are completely different.

The cost of cultivating a relationship with that girl who has little social experience, and the price of cultivating a relationship with An Shiyao in reality... The latter, given Su Ming's current situation, there is no chance, and the level is not enough.

In TV dramas, some domineering CEO often falls in love with me. In reality, don’t do this in your dreams, as you may become an idiot.

The most valuable thing about people is self-awareness. Over the years, I have come to understand this truth no more.

After all, is it really just An Shiyao's body that he likes?

To have regrets at the end...thinking about the mood of reading files is no longer just about the body.

The wife in the game is already dead. Or the program interrupts hibernation. In reality, she is not. Just because I'm greedy... there are other choices that are more suitable for me.

"Okay, Mr. An, I'll go back and get back to work. I'm really sorry for asking such a personal question."

"...I'm not finished yet."

"?"

"Su Ming, did you... know me before? No one has ever dared to ask me such a question face to face."

An Shiyao felt an unspeakable fear, wavering...and trying her best to suppress her emotions.

"I would like to have this kind of fate."

"If I knew Mr. An, I would have come to get close to him a long time ago."

"Sorry, I'm just curious about what kind of person can be favored by Mr. An... I'm presumptuous."

Su Ming smiled apologetically.

leave."……"

An Shiyao's fear just now became real.

"Mr. An...the purchasing department is still waiting for the invoice. I'll go over first."

"Ah."

After the assistant also left the office, An Shiyao tremblingly took out the medicine bottle from the drawer.

He doesn't know himself.

This is basically a question that even a child can figure out.

If I knew him, I would have stood next to him to talk to him as early as yesterday, and I would have been chatting with him when I met him in the lobby when I first came to this company.

Estazolam tablets.

I have no choice but to not eat this kind of thing. Will affect work and sleep quality.

it's not like that.

What makes me really anxious and uncool is something else.

At the beginning of the conversation, he was very reserved. His eyes never met his own.

But halfway through, I would occasionally look at the assistant.

Sometimes I look at myself.

Not being subtle, just when I was hiding my lack of calmness and pretending to drink coffee... I was very sensitive to that kind of sight.

But isn’t that normal after all?

No matter how modest she is, her figure is inherited from her mother's genes, and she is a very attractive type among women.

So does the face.

He can't help but peek and ask questions that irritate him... His colleagues have commented that he used to be very ambitious and unsmiling. Always looking very stressed.

Later on, because of the frustration in the workplace, I became a little out of tune. Occasionally, I would do some crazy things. This is all explainable.

Moreover, he directly answered himself...I don't know.

So what are you still afraid of? Why is your body shaking all the time?
When talking to my father on the phone, he would say... In this case, let's look forward to life again.

no point.

16.23.

Is my sister getting out of school soon?
An Shiyao tried to organize her thoughts, entered a long content in the chat box... and sent it.

16.50.

An Xiaoxi, who was far away in Kyoto, called back.

"...Xiao Xi."

I didn't expect that the sound would be mixed with a little trembling and crying.

"Sister, I've read everything."

"Why are you telling me now?"

"Well, it doesn't matter now."

"Sister, empty your head now. Just think about one problem."

"Do you like your brother-in-law because he is handsome?"

"……Do not."

Of course not for this reason.

"If this kind of thing really exists in the past life and the present life, and looks the same... but doesn't remember your brother-in-law, is he really still a brother-in-law?"

"What about the brother-in-law who remembers you, but looks different?"

"..."

"I think."

"Whether it's appearance or soul, that's the brother-in-law I like. Other than that... he's an existence that will only make you miserable and unnecessary, sister."

"..."

"Sister, you are really too tired."

"There's no need to think so much."

"I picked up the Buddhist book you read. It says that if you practice good deeds in this life, you will enjoy blessings in the next life. It makes no sense that my brother-in-law was so good in his previous life. He shouldn't let his sister be so lucky in this life."

"..."

"I'll be on vacation in more than half a month. Anyway, this person is now my sister's employee, and he won't disappear suddenly. Then I'll come over and think about it with my sister. Don't you still have a lot of time?"

"..."

"If he is really my brother-in-law, don't worry... Even if there is a bloody plot in the TV series, and I am married and have a girlfriend, I will definitely help my sister get her."

"I'm not the only one who hopes that my brother-in-law can live, Xiaoxi... doesn't she do the same too?"

"Also, don't always tell Xiao Xi until the end! My sister and my brother-in-law used to lie to me all the time. Now that I'm 16, do I still want to lie to me? That's too much!"

"..."

On the phone.

An Shiyao gradually calmed down.

Yes.

I have been waiting for a long time, and I never care how long it will take. All she cares about is whether he is really waiting for her.

If past and present lives really exist.

Remember, you can take 101 steps forward.

If I don't remember, I just take a step back and watch from a distance as I slowly give up my innocent thoughts. Because, strictly speaking, he is not Mr. Su Ming, right?

Putting his hand on his chest...Sorry, I lied to you.

Maybe I'm not as strong as I thought.

(End of this chapter)