Chapter 317 Banquet and Her
12 month 22 day.

noon.

The sun seems to be very warm, but I feel like I am falling into an ice cellar.

Happiness gained through lies will backfire. Double the backfire.

You will become more and more afraid of being discovered and lost.

I can no longer regard this as a simple dream. Because he said that he came from a place called Snow Country. From a place where I thought... I was dead.

There was no reason to refuse the offer to go back together.

If I'm being truthful... without any lies.

"..."

My brain could melt in an instant.

That is to say, when he can convey his warmth without reservation and I can feel it.

Sink into it, and then begin to backfire violently.

What is Natasha?
Another crude and despicable lie.

"What is this for?"

I saw him take off the ring on his finger and put it calmly on the table.

Couldn't look him in the eyes.

"You should know clearly that even if you do this, I still feel disgusted."

"..."

I can't speak.

I knew it would be like this if my identity was known. I deserved it if it was worse.

12 month 22 day.

Night.

I picked up the remaining things related to me in the red light district.

That's right.

I have no right to seek forgiveness.

After doing such a despicable thing, the false happiness is too sweet to bear. After the beautiful dream is shattered...

"..."

There was still something strange between the legs.

I thought that by shamelessly giving him this seemingly pure thing, I could gain some comfort.

But that's simply not true.

It only proves that I am essentially a bad person.

I should go back to where I'm supposed to be.

12 month 22 day.

late at night.

"Where to?"

"..."

Stopped by Mr. Ming.

"Relationships have to change. But you are still useful to me now."

"Besides this, after doing all these things... you just want to walk away after patting the drum? Just like before?"

"..."

I was speechless, and my bag was still taken away from me. I walked three or four steps behind Mr. Ming.

Am I still useful?

Is there still some value to him?
12 month 22 day.

early morning.

I sleep with my veil on, hiding my face.

I no longer choose revealing clothes and wrap myself tightly.

"The face is okay. After all, it looks like two different people compared to before."

"Forget it, it's up to you."

"..."

I think this face will be hated after its identity is revealed, so I hide it.

What am I worth?
Body?
"No, I did."

"Love is the resonance between souls. I feel that... there should be no such resonance between you and me."

"What do you think?"

"..."

What is the body?
If he is now so good that I am unfamiliar with him, no, he is still just a treasure covered in dust. There will be no shortage of women like Duoduo who truly like him.

12 month 25 day.

Christmas.

Christmas doesn't exist here. But I remember...

While still in the Snow Country, I somehow got his WeChat.

【who? 】

When asked who it was, I deleted and rewrote the question. In the end, I couldn't muster up the courage.

Want to transfer money.

But I dare not say that I paid it back.

In the end, I didn't reply to the question "who". I just secretly found a way to transfer the money with a note about the bonus. Maybe I will be confused about the money.

The older you get, the more you realize that there is no medicine for regret. It is a story that every child will learn: mend the fold after the sheep have been lost.

I only have enough courage to secretly peek into his circle of friends.

There is only one all year round.

Photos of the brother and sister setting off fireworks together, where they went to play, what new clothes they bought, etc.

Just like that... looking at that harmonious, ordinary smile, I felt relieved.

For a long time, I peeked at the photos like a parasite, until I was deleted by a stranger who thought I was useless, and I could no longer see the Moments.

My life is gray.

I had the chance to climb out, but I gave up and defiled the hand that was extended to me.

My life is ruined.

But it has nothing to do with him, it was all my own doing.

cowardly.

deceive.

The essence has not changed. I just blindly accepted his kindness at that time... like a real brother.

Even if she is packaged as a saint, a refined, brand new woman...

But what is the difference between that and the food in the restaurant? The meat on the noodles is very tempting, and the portion looks generous, but when you open it, it's all bean sprouts.

me too.

When it was opened, it was full of disgusting fragments.

12 month 25 day.

Night.

I still stayed obediently in the red light district, in the private room on the second floor.

"..."

When he came back, there were lip marks on his neck and cheeks.

I recognize that lipstick. It's the same shade as mine.

I picked it carefully... The boss lady didn't have that color, only Duoduo. I also taught her about lipstick.

"How did you get here?"

Asking me.

How did it come about?
do not know.

Finally I finished my housework and when I wanted to take a breath, I suddenly realized… I didn’t know what I was living for. I watched the traffic lights flashing when I crossed the zebra crossing, but I didn’t feel anything when I saw the green light. When I saw the red light, I thought… I would almost die if I walked across the street at this time.

After cleaning up the rental house, I was hungry. I didn't want to move even if I was too hungry to move. I thought, if I die in a tidy room, maybe someone will praise me... At least I won't die with garbage all over the floor.

Keep this thought in mind.

I don’t know when I died, whether I was dead or not… I came here directly and became a new saint.

"I've been working at a beauty company, and now I'm here?"

"..."

Ok.

But those dark things should not be spoken out.

That's my own problem.

If I were to use something like this to gain sympathy, I would first feel disgusted with myself.

"A wish, let's put it that way."

"Just tell me two more wishes, and I'll fulfill them for you, and you can go back."

"You don't need to understand the reason, just think of the wish."

"..."

Will he come only if I stand before the scaffold and make a wish to see him?

Come by force.

Two more wishes and you can go back.

if it is like this……

Want to be punished?
That's just self-consolation.

I racked my brains but couldn't think of anything I wanted to do, anything that couldn't be related to him... I had given up long ago. I had no dreams, and nothing I longed for.

Is it okay to make things up?

Pretend to want to accomplish something, want to get something.

"Think slowly, don't rush."

He went back to his room, and I no longer had the chance to wear clothes that would seduce him and push open that door. I was no longer qualified to help warm the bed, and I was no longer qualified to smell his scent.

Did I do a good thing?

Let Duoduo be braver... does it count as comforting him when he is in a bad mood?

I have a wish.

I hope he can be happy forever and never have to meet someone like me again.

But I couldn't say it. If I did, he would definitely feel disgusted. It was already a favor for me to stay here and say that I had some value.

12 month 26 day.

Night.

Paimon did a good job in the aftermath. Now it can be said that the Doma Autonomous Region is the territory of the Eastern Faction. The real rebellion has begun.

"Rumble..."

It was like the goddess of luck was on Paimon's side.

"Everyone knows that the higher up the ground is, the less prone it is to earthquakes!"

When he gave a tavern speech, the ground shook. People were in a state of panic.

"Why should we do the hardest and most exhausting work and give a lot of money to those masters?"

"They were born in the Agate District, the Imperial Capital. What have they experienced? Why do they get all the benefits?"

"..."

"It's been a long time since we've had a war, you know? The captured guard leader can't even understand the map. He only knows that the two colors represent two different teams."

"We have an obligation to explain to these gentlemen that times have changed!"

"..."

"Next, let my good brother Su Ming tell you about the doctrine of equality for all!"

"..."

To be honest, Su Ming was in no mood to give a speech. All kinds of things were piling up in his head, making him very upset.

Is it still necessary to do this now?

Go back and complete your two wishes, then you can pat the drum and leave.

"Su Ming!" "Lord Su Ming!"

"mighty!"

"..."

Is this also a show put on by Paimon?

"Brother! Awesome!"

"..."

Others didn’t know, but Duoduo, who was hiding in the crowd and even forgot to take the food plate, must have acted spontaneously.

12 month 26 day.

late at night.

Maybe because Duoduo didn't say anything after kissing her yesterday, she worked extra hard in helping to wipe my back today.

The small hillside was gathering its strength and moving closer.

"Duoduo always feels that...brother doesn't seem very happy?"

“…maybe a little.”

"Duoduo can also be a listener. The former boss lady often said that Duoduo was a money-losing commodity that couldn't be sold... Duoduo could listen to many unpleasant words."

She wasn't so proud to say it.

Today, she was wearing the same pair of socks with snagged ankles as usual. They were in good condition when she was working that day.

The bathroom was very humid.

It won’t be long before the black silk starts to take on an indescribable luster.

"Uh, brother?"

There is no past between Duoduo and me. It is just that after I saved her, I gradually developed a good impression of her.

"Do you want to use Duoduo..."

"It's already been prepared!"

There's no need to yell with a red face and stiff neck. It'll be cuter. It'll make you more likely to do something silly.

12 month 27 day.

early morning.

Duoduo had never experienced this before, and she was already thin and small, so she couldn't stand Su Ming's torture.

Just using his feet was already too embarrassing. His mouth was half open like a fish emerging from the water.

"Brother...did you have a fight with sister Natasha?"

"Just like the boss lady and Mr. Paimon..."

"..."

Her black stockings have been tainted. Logically, I should take a step closer to get more, but maybe I can't help but finish it in one step.

But Duoduo just blushed and spoke calmly.

"Sister Natasha is a good person."

"No, it wasn't Sister Natasha who taught Duoduo... Brother definitely never treated Duoduo as a grown woman."

What is a big woman?

It's also a small hill now, okay?
12 month 27 day.

Two o'clock in the morning.

Usually, whether in the hut or on the second floor of the red-light district, the saint would be waiting, sitting at the table.

But not now, just like covering one's face, avoiding it deliberately.

"..."

There is a note on the table.

【desire】

[1: I want a dress]

[2: I want to eat salad]

When I first came to this world, I thought I could do anything with the help of adult souls. At the very least, I could still do better than in my previous life.

Later, I realized that my talent was there, but there was a bottleneck. I just wanted to take good care of my sister, at least I wouldn't have to live alone.

Adults who think highly of themselves are like this. They are often moved by childish and simple things, and work twice as hard for them. Forgiveness or not is meaningless. After all, it has been a long time for Su Ming. From the perspective of ordinary life, more than ten years. Add the time spent in the game, it happened decades ago.

It's hard to say that I hate it, and it's even harder to say that I like it.

A somewhat strange acquaintance?
Even if I used to do weird things not long ago.

It's okay for her to stay here or go back by herself, she doesn't need to think about it. It's just a quest NPC.

Leaving a way out is not just for her, I had thought about it before... at least Duoduo needs a way out.

"..."

Su Ming put the note in his pocket.

We will know whether this counts as a wish when the time comes. For now, just put it in your pocket.

12 month 28 day.

early morning.

Su Ming planned to go to the Southern School's territory to find Paimeng, but as soon as he left the red light district, he was stopped at the door by a woman in a black leather jacket.

He has short, neat hair and a short machete at his waist.

"You are the counselor who promotes egalitarianism around Paimon?"

The woman's voice was calm and she looked at Su Ming coldly.

"I'm not a strategist. I'm a thug, okay?"

He killed so many people, why is he still considered a strategist? Have you ever seen a strategist with such developed muscles?

"The Saint is in your hands."

"Well, do you want to grab it?"

"You also killed my sister. Of all the people here, you are the only one who has the ability to kill her."

"?"

"Thank you very much for helping me do what I have always wanted to do. I have long been annoyed with those bastards who like to keep men and ruin the family's reputation."

"..."

Su Ming thought hard for a long time and finally remembered. He was talking about the female captain of the guard at the beginning, right?
"You want to thank me?"

"Shh-"

It seems not, he is here to fight.

12 month 28 day.

Two o'clock in the morning.

Someone opened the window, but when he saw the flashing blue and white lights, he closed the window again and hid in the corner, shivering.

In ordinary fights, there might be people who dare to intervene.

But this kind of struggle is no less than that between ordinary people, and it means you are seeking death.

"I'm different from my sister. Although I like men, I only want one. I only like strong men."

"You... suit my taste in every way."

"That's why I didn't expose the fact that you took the Saint away out of kindness. The people above now only regard Paimon as the leader of the rebellion. As long as you are willing to be my male servant, I can save you from death."

"..."

Why did he still have the courage to say this when he was being pinned down by me?

"..."

Even though she was being pressed down, the woman didn't care at all. She stuck out her tongue and licked Su Ming's hand that was pinching her neck. Tongue... so long?

"As for you, you should be able to play for a long time without dying, right?"

"..."

Soon Su Ming knew why she was so confident. Because she had help.

"Kneel down and surrender or die. Choose one."

"..."

He was the bald guy who had planned to go to the Agate District but failed to defeat him.

"..."

Su Ming used up all his bonuses, and the dark blue light of the Philosophy Blade, which had been refined and absorbed magic power, became increasingly stronger.

Should have known.

This place doesn't just beat the young and the old, usually they come together.

12 month 28 day.

It's about two o'clock in the morning.

Once he got into a round-robin battle, Su Ming knew it was over.

The full bonus can't be used for long. There are flames everywhere... even on this guy. He is completely on fire.

The speed and strength were unmatched. The most difficult thing was that even if Su Ming exchanged injuries for injuries, he could not gain any advantage.

"Your knife skills are good, but they still lack some skills."

"..."

Su Ming's clothes and half of his eyebrows were burned.

Not only did they block the way, but there was also a huge fire at the guard station. Something must have happened.

"Give up. Brother is the best swordsman in the Principality of Rozalia. He has never lost a single time."

"The fact that you can hold out under him for half an hour is enough to prove... that you are worthy of being the man I choose."

The woman who was defeated by Su Ming had already climbed up and looked at Su Ming with a smile, not hiding her greed at all.

"I've been looking forward to having a durable toy like you for a long time."

He stretched out his dusty toes again and said, "Lick it. Swear allegiance to me, and I will ask my brother to pretend he never saw you."

damn it.

What kind of weird things are you encountering? I still have a trump card that I can't use. The battle has just begun... Load the save.

12 month 28 day.

Three o'clock in the morning.

"I'll go with you!"

"I'm the one you're looking for, right?!"

"..."

Is it expected or unexpected?

The saint who was supposed to stay in the red light district ran out. She ran out without understanding the current situation.

It’s not that I don’t understand it at all…

"As long as you let Mr. Ming go, I can tell you what I know. They are all plotting in front of me, I know everything."

Maybe, with a little thought.

I think she can be the traitor.

"..."

The woman in the tight leather jacket clicked her tongue and looked at Su Ming. "Although everything about you is good, there is one thing I am very dissatisfied with."

"As my toy, I actually played with this kind of stuff."

"Just chop that thing off of yours to prevent future troubles."

"..."

Su Ming could react to the woman's actions. In other words, if there were no external factors, he could predict it 100%.

"Pfft-"

The extra ones stood in front of Su Ming.

"My wish is this."

"I can help a little bit..."

Until her death, no strange power was born from her body. She just clutched the knife in her arms and wanted to rush forward to buy time.

But that makes absolutely no sense.

It would take less than ten seconds for the two men to cut her into pieces, and even less than a minute to catch up with Su Ming.

Some memories flashed through Su Ming's mind.

A folded paper crane. Some parts are not folded properly, but it does look like a paper crane.

After spreading it out, there was a sentence written on it...When I grow up, I want to be my brother's wife.

(End of this chapter)