Chapter 282: As Long as You Want
1 month 17 day.

In a large town, the Explorers Guild's VIP reception room.

"Miss An, don't worry."

"As long as this person appears where there are explorers, there will definitely be news. It's just a matter of time."

"But I want to confirm it one last time."

"He is about 5 feet 2 in height and looks average but energetic. Although he can't help but look at women's breasts and legs, he is a very kind person... I think it's okay to delete this information. Instead, the skin color, shoe size, etc. you mentioned later are more useful. Shorter and more important information is helpful for explorers to remember quickly."

"..."

"that's it."

An Shiyao knew that this kind of bounty for finding someone would seem a bit abstract to anyone, but this was exactly the kind of abstraction that was wanted.

Rather than asking someone to find someone, it would be more accurate to say that she just used this high-paying and abstract task to make the commission famous. As long as Su Ming saw it, he would immediately know that it was her who sent the commission.

"Okay, if we have any news we will send feedback to the location you specify."

The Explorers Guild wouldn't say anything. After all, to issue an A-level or higher commission, they would first have to pay dozens of gold coins for the commission. There was no completion rate issue. Just let it ferment for a while, and then cancel it after a while and pretend you never took it.

1 month 17 day.

Night.

An Shiyao visited the most powerful family in the city again.

"Miss An is so beautiful."

"Are you not married yet? Would you mind sharing a drink with me?"

"..."

As a businessman, communication is a very important part.

But for An Shiyao, she still hated men's eyes wandering around her.

If it was just her, it wouldn't be so smooth. But there was a little guy holding her hand.

1 month 17 day.

late at night.

After finishing the orders, An Shiyao was finally able to go back to the hotel and take a break.

If you spend enough money, you can easily experience an environment in this world that is no different from the Snow Country. The same king-size bed room, the same hazy big bath.

"Many men desire you."

The petite and smooth body was in the fog, in front of An Shiyao.

"Yeah, maybe I should put on some makeup. To look more like a strong woman... and less of a pretty face."

"..."

An Shiyao tried to make the baby cafeteria float up completely. But she couldn't do it at all. In her memory, Noelia could float up to two-thirds of the body. Was she sagging?

Then I looked at the little guy in front of me. Xiao Xiaoye looked no different from Xia Ye.

Yeah. I feel relieved. Not to mention floating, her body is neatly shaped like a branch when submerged in the water. So pitiful.

"What difference would it make if someone else licked you? You don't seem willing to respond to others."

"……I am married."

"Because of human engagement, you won't respond to anyone other than the one you're engaged to?"

"I'm not really interested in that kind of thing."

An Shiyao leaned lazily against the bathtub, enjoying the comfort of being surrounded by the hot air.

"I was half-coerced at first. It didn't feel good at all. It was disgusting."

"..."

"Later, I began to enjoy the feeling of being needed. This is an emotional value. What is it to be aroused just by meeting someone?"

An Shiyao picked up the dessert next to her, "Like this, it looks delicious just by looking at it, and it feels good when you hold it in your hand, but it's not enough."

"Feet, too?"

"No, why do you always talk about feet? Ah... maybe, it's the same. They're almost the same."

"..."

"If just being able to see each other isn't enough, then hold hands. If holding hands isn't enough, then kiss. If kissing isn't enough, then hug. If you're still not satisfied... that's the only way. I mean, if you're lucky enough, you'll meet someone who won't mind giving themselves to you completely. Who won't mind what happens to the other person, and may even be happy about it..."

After saying a lot of things, he looked into Xiao Xiaoye's confused eyes.

"what……"

"What am I saying? You are still a child no matter how you look at it."

"I'm not a child. I just can't remember anything before I went to bed. I forgot."

"The body is still that of a child, no matter how many years you have lived..."

"You only respond to his desires, but he responds to more than just your desires. He responds to my sister as well."

"..."

An Shiyao was silent.

"Besides, the licking was very delicate. Not an angry lick, but a happy lick."

"..."

"Besides, there will be many other things. Sitting on your lap for no reason..."

"do not talk."

"I think he looks like an old friend of mine. Even though he looks completely different, I miss him very much."

"Old friend?"

An Shiyao paused.

"Yes, but the average human lifespan is only 70 years or even shorter. The shortest amount of time I sleep is more than ten times the human lifespan. So, he can't be the old friend I might remember."

"..."

"If he were, he would regard reproduction as an instinct as common as cannibalism. Your insistence on responding to the desires of only one person seems to me like a captured prey saying 'I'm glad to be eaten by you' before being swallowed."

"Prey? That's good too. I'm not the only one saying 'it's nice to be eaten'."

"Feeding is something that happens every moment of every day, and he will lick more people's feet."

“…It’s not eating.”

"?"

“…Is it possible for food to feel something?”

An Shiyao smiled, "If it's just eating, then the food tells the person eating it. I also want to see you wearing stockings the other way around... How can I be so embarrassed and yet actually do it?"

"sock?"

"Okay, there are still many things you don't understand, so take your time. I went through this myself."

An Shiyao closed her eyes and recalled the past.

Why would someone suddenly make such a request to prove that he is a pervert?

It's just that I do too many things that make me doubt my charm or the response I get is only one-sided desire. I am a suspicious person.

If they are not together, will he find a new woman?

probably not.

After all, she left that note and pressed him against her chest.

I don't like being treated as a vase by others. But when I'm in front of him, I don't want to be treated as a vase, but I also want to have the charm of a vase at the same time.

"Your cafeteria is established."

"…This is because bathing causes the body to expand when heated and contract when cooled."

"I smell a mating call, are you in heat?"

"……Shut up."

"It turns out that humans can become aroused immediately when they think of a specific person."

"Shut up, Twig."

is there any method?
Most places have memories of Sese, especially places like the bathhouse. If you think about it, there are many images.

If you do well when you come here together, can you continue to come next time?
An Shiyao looked at the task again.

A transaction volume of one million has been completed.

[Current task: transaction volume reaches 10000000]

The second task is to add an extra zero.

Smuggling cloth, spices, materials and the like with the help of a little man around me made a lot of money. But now more and more people are imitating me, and I am making less and less money. It's time to do something else.

"Will you be mad if I let him lick me again?"

"……meeting."

"It's an angry lick, not a happy lick."

"Yes. Why are you obsessed with Mr. Su Ming? Don't you have someone you like? The one I met yesterday who was running around to make money for his sister, he's good-looking and ambitious. And he has experience in taking care of little sisters."

"My sister and I look the same, but she has things that I can't. I'm curious about the difference."

"No curiosity. Eat your snack."

"..."

Stuffing the dessert into her mouth, An Shiyao was a little confused again.

What exactly is Xiao Xiaoye in front of me? She seems to have no hostility towards me or Mr. Su Ming... but she is just curious, which doesn't count as love, right? If it's just curiosity, then even if I take her to see Mr. Su Ming again in the end, it shouldn't cause any problems.
"He's different from other humans. He has a nice smell... um."

"Try this strawberry flavor. Is it delicious?"

"……tasty."

"So, there is no good smell. It's an illusion."

How can it smell good?
Just a sweaty body. Even if there is, forget it immediately. One branch is enough. The baby cafeteria is small... but that pair of white and tender small size 32 feet, there must not be another one!
1 month 18 day.

Night.

City of the Dead.

Su Ming discovered something.

[Assist NPC status: Healthy]

[Current progress: Still in progress on the second mission]

[The player has enjoyed the bonus: All your abilities enjoy a 10% bonus (Note: As the progress of the auxiliary NPC task increases, there is a probability that a special bonus will appear, which will last until the final upload of the results)]

Is this the so-called power of bond?
I just wanted to say that I didn't feel any major discomfort after sleeping in the City of the Dead, except for a slight nosebleed.

Su Ming didn't know what An Shiyao's mission was, but his own mission now...

"..."

Su Ming turned his head and looked at Sertis, who was still unwilling to get too close to him. She was hugging her knees in the corner with her face buried between her legs.

【Character: Thertis Skylark】

【Favourability: 63】

[Description: I feel curious and happy about your arrival, but I also feel uneasy and repulsive because of my own characteristics]

Favorability stopped growing because of what happened before.

1 month 18 day.

late at night.

Su Ming took out the meat that he had prepared in advance and roasted it in the cellar.

The aroma of the barbecue had definitely reached downstairs, but no one came up until the meal started.

"..."

Take it down.

"Gulu."

I could clearly hear Sertis swallowing her saliva.

"Eat. Only when you are full will you have the energy to think about solutions to the problem."

"There's no need to worry so much."

"To put it bluntly, even if another you came out before, it wouldn't be a big deal."

"..."

She just looked up at Su Ming, showing no sign of coming over. She took out some food that looked like grass from the jar and ate it.

He refused to say anything no matter what was asked.

All that was written before was to let Su Ming leave here.

Force her to speak?
1 month 19 day.

early.

Su Ming couldn't stay still any longer. His nosebleed couldn't stop at all.

"Sertis, you can remain silent."

"But just the same."

“I’ll come again.”

"..."

She huddled in the corner and still didn't respond.

1 month 27 day.

early.

Before Su Ming returned to the nearest town, he encountered a group of people in armor.

Pushing a brand new cannon barrel, a large crowd of onlookers gathered around, and were then driven away.

"Will it work this time?"

"It's hard to say. Didn't you swear five years ago that you would definitely restore peace? But it was all in vain."

"It would be great if we could really eradicate it. Because of this lousy place nearby... our city has never been able to develop. Merchants have to take a detour to come here. Without the witch, our city would have developed to a level not much different from the King's City long ago, thanks to its relatively open geographical location and nearby waterways."

"If there were no witches, there wouldn't be an explorer service center stationed in our small place. It actually has both advantages and disadvantages."

"..."

Ordinary people didn't know what the dead city thought, but they saw the robed wizard behind the armored troops. He was chanting in an unknown language, and the cannon barrel gradually glowed. The direction he was aiming at was undoubtedly where Thetis lived.

1 month 29 day.

Su Ming took nothing with him and rushed back to the City of Death.

Those people will only go to areas that are a certain distance away from the City of Death.

"Sertis?"

Look for her everywhere.

But no one was seen in the place where he had been reading or in the cellar. Playing hide-and-seek again?

1 month 29 day.

Night.

The city is too big. If we keep searching like this, those people would have already started.

【fraud】

Thetis came out.

"I can't help it. If I don't pretend to be dead, you won't come out on your own initiative."

"Hurry up and find a place to hide."

"There are a lot of people outside, and it looks like they are going to bombard this place with special things."

"..."

Su Ming’s idea was very simple.

Regardless of whether it helps or not, it’s always better to take precautions before they happen.

1 month 29 day.

late at night.

"Boom——"

There was indeed a sound of shelling.

But in Su Ming's view, it was just a fleeting meteor... It suddenly disappeared at a certain height of the dead city. It was as if it had never appeared.

"..."

Sertis also came out of the cellar.

To put it bluntly, she had no intention of moving at all before, and was forcibly pulled in by Su Ming.

"Wow..."

Draw words on the floor with charcoal.

【here】

[That’s the kind of place]

【People, things I don’t like】

[Me too, a plague no one wants to see]

Those eyes stared straight at Su Ming, unable to hide their disappointment.

【Take whatever you want】

[No, die here]

"There's nothing good about this, right? If you must say I have a purpose."

"I want to make friends with strange people. The world is so big, is it strange to have such people?"

"Tell me about you. And about Thetis."

"Don't give up just because you're not used to speaking. I don't mind if the accent is weird or not."

"..."

She remained silent for a long time.

Rewrite the words.

[I can't help wanting you]

"?"

Su Ming was stunned.

[Stay here forever.] "It's not a big deal. I have lots of free time anyway."

1 month 30 day.

early morning.

"Goo-gee, gurgling."

This time, Sertis couldn't resist the temptation of the barbecue and ate it with relish.

But looking at the densely packed chat records on the floor, Su Ming also felt numb.

Another her...will she dream unconsciously?

I can't remember the past clearly. I've been here since I can remember, but I vaguely know that I killed many people.

I don't know how long I stayed there.

I don't know what power it is.

I like barbecue, I know.

[No one will let me touch]

[If you... feel uncomfortable, just tell me. ]

"..."

Her XP was strange. She seemed very happy to run into Su Ming directly.

[My favorites are Meow Meow Three Thousand Questions and Gulliver's Travels Around the World...]

She is not the type to be stingy with words at all.

It is better to say that once you let go of your grudges, there is no room for the talkative floor.

【Thank you, first friend. 】

[They can't come in. If possible, I hope you can... come more often. I also want to eat candy. ]

[The book says that courtesy is the key to success. How should I repay you? I can do anything.]

"..."

Don't use the baby cafeteria to oppress your conscience. Conscience cannot stand the test.

“Friends ask nothing in return.”

Then look at the entry box above her head.

【Favourability: 75】

[Description: I am curious and happy about your arrival, and I have a general good impression of you. You can try to develop any relationship you want]

What I want is friendship, not py.

[Nose, doesn't it hurt? ]

"It's okay. I'm getting more and more used to it."

It's not just the bonus brought by Yao. The immunity ability may be because I didn't use it often enough before and I wasn't familiar with it. Now it's not a big deal to stay for two days.

1 month 31 day.

early.

Su Ming's symptoms started to get worse again.

Can only stay till noon.

"Do you want to cut your hair? It's too long."

"..."

Even if her hair stood up, it could still be dragged.

It took me a long time to cut with a knife.

Ok?
Isn't there a commission to take her hair? Take it and claim the reward, and you'll have nothing to worry about.

wrong.

If I really go to claim the reward, I will undoubtedly be on the opposite side of her. Now I and the witch are in the same boat.

literal meaning.

I don't know when Sertis changed into her own pants. They don't fit at all.

"What are you yelling about? Come back?"

"..."

Ok?
Have you spoken?
Perhaps because she hadn't waited a long time for Su Ming to reply, she shrugged her shoulders again and jumped off the stool. The hair she had just cut fell everywhere.

[I... didn't say anything]

"Isn't it great?"

"When will you be back... It takes me at least half a month to go to the nearest town and back."

"..."

She seemed to want to say something, but no sound came out of her mouth. She didn't write with the charcoal pencil, but just lowered her head.

2 month 10 day.

Su Ming returned to the town and heard a lot of rumors.

For example, the crime rate has risen recently, and some people say that it is because the bombardment angered the witch, and the witch came out to cause trouble again. But most people treat it as a joke, saying that if the witch really came out, the town would have been destroyed long ago. It is impossible to steal wallets.

For example, it seems that there is another war and they are recruiting soldiers. It is said that many explorers have gone.

For example, if an explorer somewhere did something great enough to get an audience with the emperor and receive a reward, then there might be another legendary team.

"..."

But none of this had much to do with Su Ming. He just went to the Explorers Guild as usual to ask if there was any news about An Shiyao. If there was no news, he would buy some things and return to the City of the Dead.

2 month 16 day.

It's raining.

The City of the Dead was still very quiet, so quiet that even the sound of ordinary footsteps was piercing.

no change.

The city gate was previously intact, but now it is a brand new ruin. It was recently destroyed by humans.

Not only the city gate, but also many intact houses inside were gone, including the place where Sertis read.

Has anyone been here?

"..."

The rain slid down Su Ming's cheeks. As he walked further in, he could easily see another figure in the rain, wrapped only in a thin piece of cloth.

The fabric had long been soaked. It was translucent, if you will. He was standing there without pants or shoes.

"Clap."

He first took a small step forward unconsciously, and then trotted towards Su Ming.

"Sertis?"

The wet cloth did not conceal its shape at all, and it was imprinted on Su Ming's ribs without reservation.

"I miss you."

"..."

The hands on Su Ming's back were getting stronger and stronger.

"Haha, I've never met anyone, let alone talked to anyone... but I seem to like you."

"Even though she hates me, I hinted that dirty hair would leave a bad impression on her, so she's washing her hair desperately."

"I like you too~"

"Since you are not afraid of death, why don't you stay here?"

The nails dug into Su Ming's flesh.

"I, too, want friends who can stay here forever. Are you willing?"

"..."

Su Ming pushed her away and summoned the Philosopher's Blade without hesitation.

"Haha, are you finally willing to tell me what you really want?"

2 month 16 day.

Night.

Su Ming's clothes were completely soaked. She was the same, it made no difference whether she was wearing anything or not.

"Why on earth?!"

"You must have some purpose! You want to kill me?! You want me?!"

"..."

"You are not human? If you are... you should be angry, you should want to kill me... you should want to sleep with me."

"..."

Su Ming had a chance to kill her. It was limited to the first ten minutes. If he gave up those ten minutes, she would naturally take over as his strength continued to decline. She didn't use any magic... She simply created an environment similar to space, which would constantly drain Su Ming's physical strength.

"You're really going to die."

"Oh."

What can be done?
I started to hesitate whether to kill her, but after giving up, I could only reload the game.

"I hate boring humans like you."

"Neither want to get me, nor want to kill me."

"Make friends...what kind of nonsense is that? Do you really know what I am?"

"..."

The whole body is full of black lines, and it looks a bit dark. But the ferocious expression that seems to be helpless is inexplicably cute.

"Seeing this kind of person...you still want to be friends with me?!"

"All humans are the same, including you. All the same."

"As long as you use the right method..."

"Are you interested in this body?"

She pulled off the last piece of thin cloth and stood in front of Su Ming, stretching out her leg again.

When I bent down, the ripe fruits swayed behind me.

“I say… are you the inner personality of Sertis’s paranoia?”

"Testing me like this does work, but it's just a reaction. Do you really hope that I have some malicious intent?"

"..."

She paused.

The fierce eyes just now stared at Su Ming, as if confused.

"……I don't understand."

"Obviously all humans deserve to die... all the same."

"..."

"How about we sit down and talk calmly?"

"..."

She didn't reply, her eyes gradually became blank, and then focused on Su Ming again.

Has someone changed?

"!"

She seemed to realize that she had no clothes on and what she was doing. Her cheeks unconsciously flushed slightly.

"Are you okay?"

But compared to this, she seemed to care more about whether Su Ming had any problems.

"Nothing. Now... the normal you?"

"..."

Sertis took several steps back, picked up the clothes on the ground and covered her chest with them.

"I'm sorry."

"I really want to come back."

Does it mean that after coming to her senses, she has been controlled by another her?

So whenever she gets upset or has some strong emotion, the other personality comes out?
Call him a villain.

But Su Ming felt that something was not right. It was more like a protective personality that did not trust anyone due to some kind of trauma. After all, in the end, he was trying to make himself malicious, and he did not seem to intend to really kill until he achieved his goal.

2 month 16 day.

Night.

Something outrageous had happened. I had done it to him again.

For half a month, I often missed the days when he was around... It was much better than reading alone.

'So, why let him go?'

'You want him to stay here, too?'

If he stays here, he will die.

"It doesn't matter to you whether he lives or dies. He won't come back forever anyway."

'Maybe I won't come next time.'

'...'

Unconsciously, I really want him to be here forever, even if he dies.

When I came to my senses, I lost control again.

"It's not that scary. I think the other you is okay."

"..."

The last time, everyone who saw me lose control was dead. The bodies were scattered all over the place.

They want to kill me.

But now he is still fine. He doesn't want to kill me, he just wants to be friends with me.

He was the only weirdo who had slept for so long.

I wanted to say, let's go. If I stay here, I might lose control and really kill him one day.

"It's okay. I'm actually pretty strong. At least it's a 50-50 chance."

"..."

But he didn't take it seriously at all. He had seen me like that twice before, but he was willing to sit next to me.

'He is interested in your breasts and has a purpose for you'

Is this why you want to be friends with me?
I don't understand.

but……

"When I'm not listening."

"Lock up the nest!"

I don't want to go back to the days when I was always reading alone. I don't want him to die either.

"Sertis?"

"..."

So, I vaguely remember that he was interested in my breasts or something. For this purpose... I can repay you now.

I will tell you.

I've come to my senses before and realized how many people I've killed. I can vaguely remember things that happened even longer ago.

Also, even I know... I've read so many books. Of course I know that this can't be touched by anyone.

"You can... take as long as you want. Anyway... I won't touch you."

There are other things you can say, I can do them all.

I have the chains. I lock myself up every night when I sleep, and that's all.

“This is truly force majeure.”

"?"

What does force majeure mean?
Do not understand.

But his hand was pinching... it was so itchy. I felt strange... so shy.

If it makes up for what I did, so I won't be scared, it's ok to go a little longer.

"Damn it, they are using this kind of friend money to test the cadres."

"Which cadre can stand this kind of test?"

"Well."

It doesn't say you can put it in your clothes.

But, if that's the case... does that mean he still doesn't hate me? Apart from the unbearable tingling sensation, I felt relieved.

"I am done."

"?"

Why was I so happy just now, but now I feel uncomfortable somewhere?

"It's okay. I'm just reminiscing about the underwear I had ten minutes ago."

"Now you can tell me about the other things you remember. Don't worry about the moral bottom line. It's gone. Well, that kind of thing has long left me forever."

"..."

Something I still vaguely remember.

If I tell him, maybe... he will be scared. But he is different, right? At least he should tell it honestly... The book also said that if you can't even be honest, you are not a friend at all.

I killed many people.

[Including my family, neighbors, and many people who originally lived here]

Ok.

No matter what, it was this body that did it. It was me who did it. That's why I was voluntarily 'imprisoned' here and couldn't go anywhere.

(End of this chapter)