Chapter 235 Where is he?

7 month 6 day.

noon.

The dress is dirty again.

"Hoohoo."

I was at the stairs, watching my brother-in-law carefully drying his hair with a hair dryer. I wanted to call him "Brother Su Ming", but I couldn't say it.

It's time to change the name...but it's a little difficult for me to do it right away.

"..."

He moved his feet and went upstairs normally.

A few days ago, I could never have imagined that it would turn out like this.

Even if Sister Xueer told me that Mom would no longer remember what I had revealed, but if you stand by the river too often, you will get your feet wet.
Leaving is the best way to deal with it.

I had packed my luggage that day and was ready to move to a better, bigger house with my best friend.

Chatted a lot.

When my best friend told me that I finally figured it out, I smiled knowingly.

Yes.

I know, brother-in-law... Brother Su Ming doesn't treat me as an object, and what he said is not a lie to fool me for the time being.

Because of that care, I decided to disappear completely. There are many kinds of partings, and I always hate the leaving without saying goodbye in TV dramas, so I would say a lot of my heartfelt words before leaving.

I also hate TV dramas where the two sides of the Taiwan Strait are inexplicably separated and never see each other again.

Actually, it doesn’t need to be that troublesome.

As long as I live with my bestie and don't take the initiative to look for him, even if Su Ming has the chance to come to Kyoto, he won't be able to spend time alone with me because I live with my bestie. Over time... maybe he will understand what I mean and no longer be interested in me.

Ask me if I find it hard?

of course.

Who can easily go from extravagance to frugality? I am used to receiving kindness, and I have to give it up... How can I be so noble?

That’s why I still reply to messages after talking so much… The reason is simply that it doesn’t matter if I don’t initiate the conversation.

after that.

She said everything was fine, and suddenly asked me to come to the winter market. In fact, I could not hide anything from my sister.

"I have some strange interests..."

Sleeping with my sister, waiting for her to tell me herself. I was really surprised.

Such a dignified and elegant sister, but she has an unspeakable XP.

When she was alone, she would collect the hair on the bed for fun, and she would get satisfaction from seeing her long hair tangled with Su Ming's short hair. In addition to hair...ha, just because of this interest, I found that it seemed to fit my sister's current personality.

'What about you? Do you have any strange interests?'

'...'

me?

'm? Not really, I just like him because you are out of control? '

No.

I don't like Brother Su Ming to completely lose his mind, I would rather...be rational and uncontrolled. It's very contradictory, maybe I can't express it clearly.

"How can there be any rational lack of control? What is that?"

"correct."

"I heard from my father that you painted a lot of pictures and seemed to admire him."

'...'

"Is it longing, or is it love? Or do you know what love is? Astringent love doesn't count."

I have never simply longed to be possessed.

The bitterness and the like are always because...

"A derivative of feelings?"

"Haha, after all, I still want to be responded to. Whether it's ordinary care or sex, it's the same."

'I'm not as clingy as you are.'

"As for me... I just like Mr. Su Ming to hold on to me. I don't mind being mean."

'...'

Where's the meanness?
'I was very scared for a while. I had agreed not to bother Mr. Su Ming, but I still called him. Then... Mr. Su Ming put aside his work at Windsor Castle and came back immediately.'

'...'

'By the way, because he was worried about me, he called me on the plane and sang a very weird song called "Mouse Loves Rice". It was totally out of tune.'

'...'

"So when I found out that you had a relationship with Mr. Su Ming, the first thing I thought of was not what Mr. Su Ming did to you, but you..."

'...'

'I've thought a lot. I've thought it through before Mr. Su Ming told me what happened to you. The reason is not important, what's important is what to do next. I'm your sister, I know what you might do. For example, want to run away. If I were you, I would do this.'

'...'

"But Mr. Su Ming and I are no longer a couple in the common sense. If you leave, I will not only lose my sister, but also Mr. Su Ming. Am I smart?"

'...'

I wanted to apologize, but my sister didn't give me a chance to speak.

"What I just said was the practical reason, now it's my real thoughts."

"I may understand Xia Ye's thoughts a little bit. She is just better than me."

"I always think about how Mr. Su Ming can be happy and live a good life, and think from this perspective. You and I are more or less selfish, in order not to embarrass ourselves and for our own benefit."

'Everyone will always have a selfish side, right? I shouldn't be competing with myself, nor with Xia Ye. The only thing I can do is to be myself.'

'I think, compared to Mr. Su Ming always having a knot or regret by my side in this life, I would rather accept you. When I think in this direction, all kinds of weird ideas pop up in my head... For example, I can accept outsiders, why can't I accept you? '

'...'

That night, my sister said a lot to me.

In the end, they started to blame their brother-in-law together.

"I told him several times to dry the towels regularly, but he just couldn't remember."

"The most annoying thing is that he used my body lotion as shaving cream last time. He even said it was the same thing."

'...'

'It's the same when sleeping. It's fine if his hands are not honest. I even forgave him for not being honest with his hands, but he still dared to complain that I was hugging him too tightly and felt hot, and slapped me and pushed me off the bed. I got a bump on my forehead.'

These are all real things happening.

Then my sister mentioned an even longer time ago, in Sea Island City.

That's something I never asked before, but my sister took the initiative to ask it now.

'Well, you guessed it right.'

'I hated him at first. It was my fault. I always misunderstood Mr. Su Ming's words and deeds.'

'He originally intended to teach me a lesson. But I saw that he treated you very well, so I thought he was threatening me to continue serving him.'

'...'

'Until we almost died, I took a knife and tried to stab the body, Mr. Su Ming held my hand and scolded me harshly... Then I saw him taking care of you. I thought, yes, if he was a man who coveted my body, he would now think that I and my sister were a burden, right? It's time for them to have enough fun, and they will definitely be abandoned.'

'But he never did. He never asked me to do anything and just took good care of me and you. I told the doctor about it and she thought it was Scottish syndrome, but I think... that was just the beginning of my understanding of Mr. Su Ming.'

'For me, once I start to seriously want to understand someone, and the other person shows more and more than I expected...I will want to return the favor without hesitation, and even fall in love with him. Whether it is the suspension bridge effect or Stockholm syndrome is completely unimportant and I don't care. I just want him to look at me.'

'Hehe...you heard me right. I could do anything during that time. When you were doing homework outside, I could actively seduce Mr. Su Ming to go to the bathroom. I just wanted to make him look at me, refresh his view of me, and experience the love that I wanted to show up completely and be seen by him for the first time.'

'...'

Is that right?

That's right.

That's why I'm a little jealous.

Do you want to ask about my experience with brother Su Ming?
Actually, I have some doubts, for example, the last stickman diary. I always feel that it really happened, and I always feel that Brother Su Ming is hiding something from me... He said there are some things that I don't know, but he just needs to remember them.

"Really? But Mr. Su Ming felt that telling me this proved that he had more than just a crush on you."

"It's impossible to bring you here just because of something like this."

'so.'

"You know everything, and you know very well that Mr. Su Ming is not a good person, but you still come in without hesitation."

'...'

"Even though you are my younger sister...I should say more, right? It's not too late to regret now. Maybe something will make you sad later. Maybe you will be so sad that you can't breathe. Can you bear it?"

'...'

I've heard it too much.

This time I want to muster up the courage to speak out my own opinion.

"Why should I endure it?"

'I am already very happy.'

'...'

'Silly sister. You are really finished.'

My sister touched my hair. I also put my hands on her shoulders, and I felt calmer and calmer.

'In the future, consider calling him something else. Something that better suits your wishes.'

'...'

Name?
Well, I also think it should be changed. I just didn't have the nerve to stick with what I wanted to call it before.

My sister is very nice to me, really.

No scolding.

I didn't keep silent on purpose. Normally, I should have been the one trying to explain and seek forgiveness. But in reality, it was my sister who kept talking to ease the atmosphere. It was also my sister who took the initiative to touch my hair and gave me a comforting smile.

It was like telling me... I was not wrong.

The day before yesterday, my sister went on a business trip to the neighboring Jiang City.

A little earlier, I worked as a temporary anchor for two days at my sister's company. I can't sing, but except for singing my own lyrics, people will think it sounds good. Singing other people's songs is mediocre. Emotional investment is a very metaphysical word...but I think it exists.

My sister and I had a tacit understanding.

Brother Su Ming was left aside for a few days. Business trip... maybe it was true, but it was probably not something that needed to be done immediately.

Once my sister left, I had the chance to be alone with Brother Su Ming.

I looked in the mirror.

What my mother said before was right. After becoming a woman...even if the appearance has not changed, there is a strange feminine charm.

I was enjoying the love in brother Su Ming's arms.

I can feel it while closing my eyes and thinking about the problem. The summer vacation is still long. Maybe the work of the student union will allow me to go to school earlier than other students, but that will still take at least a month.

I don't have to leave. I don't have to try to disappear in the usual way of 'even if it's simple but no contact'.

Open the closet.

My sister has a lot of clothes. The closet is filled with clothes she wears often in summer, and there is a cloakroom for her other clothes. From the closet alone, I can see that at least half of them were bought to cater to my brother-in-law's xp. My sister used to be like me, she only bought bras in solid colors, pure black, pure blue, and pure white, and they were simple and unpretentious. She would even deliberately buy a size smaller because of her body shape.

Now, they have lace edges, front buttoning, half-covered... semi-transparent gauze. My sister didn't like to wear pantyhose before, she only wore thick leggings in winter. High heels are considered to be a shackle for women in the new era, and they are considered to be dirty products to please men.

My sister used to be so extreme.

But now...

There are all kinds of socks, thigh socks, hip socks, calf socks... and high heels, the highest of which is 11cm. Shoes with heels that high are definitely not meant to be worn outside.

"..."

I stretched out my hand.

I rummaged through the clothes in my closet and found a short-sleeved off-shoulder top in pure black.

For pants, choose denim hot pants.

I have never worn such revealing clothes. I mean, my belly button can be seen with the slightest movement, and if I don’t wear safety pants…if my legs move too much, my thighs are exposed, and even my buttocks can be seen a little through the texture lines decorated on the corners of the denim hot pants.

Probably?

My sister is also troubled about how to get along with her brother-in-law after accepting me.

After he really couldn't figure it out, he just gave in and gave me the chance.

I looked at my new self in the mirror, feeling very guilty. I don't know... If my sister wanted to, I would probably lock myself in the room even if I was embarrassed, until my brother-in-law touched me and gave up thinking.

But if my sister also feels embarrassed, or even overwhelmed, I might... take this opportunity to tell my sister that I am enough.

Go downstairs.

"Xiao Xi?"

"..."

Has Su Ming blown my skirt dry?
The denim shorts were too short, and it was daytime... When he looked at me with a strange gaze, I couldn't help but cover my pants with my hands. The same is true for the baby cafeteria, the neckline is a bit low...

Besides, I feel too embarrassed to say what I should call it.

"This looks like Yao's clothes?" "...Yeah."

"..."

Brother Su Ming was silent for a moment and said, "She also has a lot of normal clothes, right?"

"..."

I didn't say anything, but my face was already burning.

She walked in front of him and stretched out her feet. Her feet were wrapped in white silk calf socks she had taken from her sister's closet.

"…I just want to wear my sister's abnormal clothes."

"Ah? Didn't it just end?"

"It's not the first day I've known Brother Su Ming... Well, if it gets dirty this time, I'll wash it..."

"Wait, why are you calling me that again?"

"...can't you?"

"That's not the case. I just feel like you're being forced?"

"...I'll get used to it."

I plan to forget all guilt for now and enjoy the opportunity I have.

I don’t really think of myself as an M.

but now……

"Actually, my five senses are naturally duller than those of ordinary people, so..."

I have to work twice as hard on everything. It doesn't matter if it's m or not, I just want it this way.

7 month 6 day.

in the afternoon.

The top and denim shorts were filthy, not to mention the calf socks.

"Come on, how long are you going to keep washing like this? After all, it was me who did it... I'll join in too."

I saw Brother Su Ming touching my cheek and sitting next to me to wash clothes.

“But I didn’t say I hated it this time.”

"It doesn't matter whether I told you or not."

"Then... Brother Su Ming, did you become like this because you thought I was so good just now and couldn't help yourself?"

"Is your XP getting weirder?"

"Before, I was happy just by being willing to look at me. Now... I'm trying to ask for a little bit of compensation."

"What kind of shady deal is this?"

"Ah... You can't wash socks like this. You have to use a soft brush to wash them little by little along the grain."

"I think it might be a little hard for me to face your sister tomorrow."

"It's okay to be known. For sure."

"? It's not you who's kneeling on the washboard."

"Brother Su Ming...when have you ever knelt on a washboard?"

"Hey, I got goosebumps. That name."

"Brother Su Ming? Actually, that's how I called him at first... No, should I call him Big Brother?"

"No, anything is fine, don't be big brother."

"..."

I couldn't help but raise my lips. I wasn't the only one who felt embarrassed.

This is it.

I had only dared to peek from the dark corners, unable to understand how strong the emotional bond between Brother Su Ming and Sister Su Ming was. Now, I finally got a peek.

My worries were completely unnecessary.

Just me... can't shake it at all. I don't envy, I will still silently bless them. No, I will stand beside my sister and brother Su Ming openly and continue to bless them. As an ordinary companion, I don't need a specific title like wife or lover, just companionship.

7 month 6 day.

Night.

"Is it true? Have you bought the plane ticket?"

I told Brother Su Ming that I was going back to Kyoto.

"Well, I don't plan to sit idle. Brother Su Ming's studio hasn't opened yet, so I'll find a vocal teacher to learn for a month. After school starts, I'll take related courses again."

"Did I take what Brother Su Ming said seriously?"

"If you dislike me for not being able to be your spokesperson in the future, I will complain to my sister."

"?"

"Start threatening me?"

"hey-hey."

I smiled slyly, "When the time comes, my sister and I will make trouble together. Will Brother Su Ming be able to handle it?"

"Can't I have both of them..."

Brother Su Ming raised his hand.

"…Tsk, sister is not m."

Thinking back to the afternoon when I begged Brother Su Ming to treat me like that, I felt a little embarrassed.

But it's already been done.

and so……

"Next time, I'll sing while Brother Su Ming beats the drum like that."

"?"

"I-I mean! Maybe I'll get some inspiration!"

"Let's go."

Inspiration is not important.

The important thing is, when I think of that scene... I feel quite happy.

My sister once said that it's okay to ask for something occasionally. Does this count?

"It's really no problem. Are you really going to learn vocal music?"

"When did Brother Su Ming become so nagging? If you really can't bear it, just tie me up and lock me in a small dark room."

"Then you should leave. I can't satisfy your cravings."

"Then satisfy other needs first."

"?"

I hugged Brother Su Ming and gave him another kiss that almost suffocated me.

"Brother Su Ming, sister loves you very much."

"……I know."

"Send her more flowers. Gardenias are her favorite."

"I think as long as I put some thought into giving her something, she'll like it."

"Tsk...Brother Su Ming, you are really a bit cocky."

"..."

But he was right, as long as it was a gift from him, even if it was a wild flower picked by the roadside, my sister would be in a good mood. Flowers don't mean anything, the warmth they convey is the most important.

7 month 7 day.

1 points in the early hours.

I arrived at Kyoto Airport. As soon as I turned on my phone, I received several messages from my sister.

Ask me why I left without saying goodbye.

Ask me if I still have any concerns.

……

I thought about it for a long time and only replied with one sentence.

[Sister, I ate you secretly while you were away. ]

[I wore my sister's clothes and dried them...but my sister will definitely find out which one it is. 】

[Next time my sister is so nice to me, I will definitely take advantage of her kindness and cheat on her again.]

[Next time my sister wants to endure loneliness and not stay in the same room with brother Su Ming for some reason, I will sneak over...]

It took my sister a long time to reply to me.

[Next time you sleep in the guest room. ]

My sister and I don’t need to talk too much. I think it’s good like this. If my sister wants me to take a few steps forward, then I will take one more step forward.

But I can't just accept my sister's reward and meet her again...

Ok.

Anyway, I have some M attributes, even if I have to watch Brother Su Ming and Sister Su Ming do something, no matter how embarrassing it is... maybe I will feel a strange sense of satisfaction. It's no big deal.

7 month 7 day.

1.35am.

I had just finished a phone call with my bestie and was looking for a car near the airport.

I always feel like someone is watching me.

Turning my head, I saw a woman wearing clothes that clearly didn't match her figure. There was a small card on the back of her neck... a tag?
"Hello, are you having any trouble?"

An Xiaoxi greeted him reluctantly.

The woman didn't answer, still staring at her.

"Hello?"

The same goes for using a foreign language.

Not long after, the ground staff on duty at the terminal also discovered the woman and rushed out in a hurry.

Anyone who met with an accident?

Someone from the airport came out to question him, and he would probably be sent to the police station later. An Xiaoxi didn't think much about it and waved to stop a taxi to go home.

7 month 7 day.

2.36am.

I'm home now.

As usual, I took a comfortable bath, reported to Brother Su Ming and the others that I was safe, and then prepared to go to bed.

"Screw rustle..."

But not long after I lay down, I heard some movement at the door.

Someone is outside.

"Crack-"

Very loud sound.

I quickly picked up the dictionary on the bedside table and took out my cell phone to call the police.

"Shh-"

But the person who came was too fast, knocking over a bunch of things and heading straight to the bedroom...

"Gu..."

My throat was clamped by a smelly hand.

"Sniff."

I don't understand what she is doing.

You mean, smell me?

"..."

No matter how hard I struggled, I couldn't break free. The hands clamped my neck tightly, and I couldn't breathe.

Looking into those eyes that were flashing a faint blue light in the darkness.

"you."

"Know...him?"

She squeezed the words out of her throat, put her nose close to my face, and sniffed hard again.

"It smells like him. Tell me, where is he?"

I recognized it.

She is the woman I just met at the airport. There is indeed a card tag on the back of the clothes, so... did you steal the clothes from somewhere?

Does it taste like him?
who?

In my life, the only person who would ask and say this... could be related to Brother Su Ming.

(End of this chapter)