Chapter 201: I was just thinking about having a sweet dream without thinking about the consequences
11 month 14 day.

noon.

The time is based on a mechanical watch found by my brother-in-law. It may not be accurate, but it is not much off.

Fear, anxiety...can't find the goal.

These things seem to be completely isolated from my brother-in-law. Now he does things in an orderly manner, just like he did in Haidao City.

"If you feel hot, you can take off one piece of clothing."

"..."

There are no granular snowflakes anymore, only dot-like snow.

It was still a bit difficult for me to wander around the train with my backpack on my back. After all, the snow had not completely melted, so I had to be careful in areas that were not firmly stepped on.

There must have been an earthquake.

There are cracks in the ground around the track. Looking a little further away, you can see various broken facilities.

It's definitely not a good place.

"Be careful, don't jump over like that."

"Hey, the bag is fine."

Because it's just me.

So I am the only one my brother-in-law can pay attention to and take care of.

It's not a good place, but that doesn't stop me from thinking of it as a good place.

I once imagined a world that was beyond the real world, where you didn't have to think about realistic problems, and just thought about good things.

Now, has this fantasy been fulfilled?
"Shh-"

monster.

This is the second time, and I didn’t have the energy to observe carefully before.

I saw it clearly when my brother-in-law stabbed another one to death.

The body is very soft and seems to have no spine. If you are not too close, you can't smell the strange smell, but if you get closer, you can smell a faint stench. It's like coming out of a biogas tank.

Aside from a small ring of ciliated mouthparts, there was nothing on the body to distinguish it from a head or tail. I had never seen anything like it before.

"Brother-in-law...have you eaten this kind of thing?"

"have eaten."

"Can it really be eaten?"

"I don't feel any problem at the moment. You don't have to eat unless it's absolutely necessary."

"..."

I'm not that pretentious.

As long as my brother-in-law says it’s okay to eat it, I can...right?

11 month 14 day.

Night.

Although visibility has improved a lot and the temperature is acceptable with a thick coat on,

But the harvest was not more than yesterday.

The snow outside the carriages melted, and the rust on the outer surface became more visible. I guessed that more than a dozen carriages might have been thrown off the track during the earthquake.

There were very few corpses, most of which had been eaten by some creatures.

If I lived here alone, I'd probably get more and more scared.

"..."

"?"

I put the clean earphones into my brother-in-law's ears.

play.

The small mp3 player worked fine. This was thanks to a few dry batteries I found, which I flattened and wired to power the mp3 player miraculously.

"Can you still do this?"

My brother-in-law was obviously surprised.

"When my sister used to tinker with the radio, I would help her."

I took advantage of this gap and sat next to my brother-in-law. He was very close.

Cut a few songs.

Sure enough, even after decades, there will still be people who are willing to listen to a good song over and over again.

"Our priority now is to ensure survival. Let's see if we can find a water source. Since it's going to rain and snow, there should be water nearby."

"After ensuring survival to the maximum extent, we will move to a suitable place to collect materials. Do you see this? In the winter of 2024, all the new energy and fuel factories in the city are in this area."

"..."

In fact, compared with the days in Sea Island City, there is not much difference.

survive.

hope.

Other survivors.

Is this necessary? My brother-in-law has to consider a lot, and he can't be like me... just sticking to the side with a simple mind, hoping that he can be noticed more or less.

It's ok.

Finding other people comes last. I totally agree, I don't care if there are other people in the world.

Of course. Maybe it's better without it.

11 month 14 day.

late at night.

Sadly, my brother-in-law no longer sleeps with me.

He chose to sit by the campfire and quietly watch the world outside. After all, the weather is no longer as bad as yesterday. If I say it's cold and I want to prevent colds, I will only be doubted.

Is it because the food we eat is too unnutritious?
Stomach discomfort.

I have thought about it, if it was my sister...she might be able to say it easily and ask her brother-in-law to help massage it or something like that.

I can't do that.

This is just a normal feeling of discomfort, which is normal in this world. If my brother-in-law has to take care of every little trouble, even if Tianran is very kind to me... it is impossible for me not to be annoyed at all.

11 month 15 day.

My brother-in-law hasn't slept. I can see that he is not in a good mood.

"If something happens, I will definitely slap my brother-in-law twice, and I guarantee that he will wake up immediately."

"...That's not necessary."

"..."

My brother-in-law is also a human being. He also needs sleep.

but me.

You can stare at him without any scruples when he is asleep.

That face, if thrown into a crowd, would not be special. If it were not for the elaborate dressing up on the day of my sister's wedding, it would be very ordinary.

My best friend once asked me, why does my sister like her brother-in-law? Is there some special charm?

Yes.

Although ordinary, it is worth looking at.

Although he looks no different from other people, you can feel safe just by being around him.

What's special about it?

Does being lustful count?

Seven years ago, I was a child and didn’t understand many things. Now, seven years later, I know what’s going on, including the secret language between my sister and brother-in-law and the strange noises next door at certain times.

In the end, the sign I put up to make sure my sister wasn't scared was also obscene.

Very strange.

But I can understand my sister's feelings after seeing it.

Being dignified, cold, and proud does not mean that you will not change with your partner after you fall in love and accept him/her wholeheartedly. My sister, who has maintained her image as a strong woman and elite for 18 years, feels reassured by those dirty words and thus takes courage.

I was clearly standing at the bathroom door at that time, but I was doing that kind of thing with my sister inside.

I just wanted to sleep peacefully in the middle of the night, but he took me away. He said I was sleepwalking.

……

If there is no emotion in doing that, what's the difference between my body and my sister's?
They say that men are monsters and animals who think with their lower body.

I haven't experienced that.

The only time was when I was misidentified.

I've watched the video.

A little boy who has never been in a relationship would imagine what the child's name would be just by touching the hand of a cute girl on the bus.

That day……

This is what I became.

After that, I always compare myself with my sister unconsciously. After all, she always tells me everything, such as wanting to do a manicure, wanting to try a perm, wanting to change her lip color, etc.

Why are you wearing such sexy underwear? You don't have a boyfriend.

My best friend complained about it.

Yes.

Why do I have a beautiful manicure like my sister? My feet are always hidden in my shoes, and no one can see them unless necessary. I use the same body lotion, and it won't be touched. Who knows what I use?
"...brother-in-law."

No response.

"..."

I looked at my brother-in-law curled up in the quilt and reached out my hand.

Can I not think about anything?
No need to think about the consequences, ethics, reality, or follow-up.

When I was a kid, I wanted to pull out my brother-in-law's beard. I never thought about anything else. I just reached out and did it.

bumped into.

Although I'm in a 'dream', my brother-in-law's beard grows. If he doesn't shave for two days, it will have a strong grainy feel.

Look outside again.

Has the snow stopped yet? It seems that there is only an occasional cold wind.

The tilted electric poles are half buried in the ground, but I actually think this kind of world is great.

What can I do if there is no result in the end?
Say it. If I get rejected, will I still be able to put on the same optimistic expression as I do now?
I don't know anything and can't guarantee anything.

If before any action is taken, there is a god who says "you will succeed" or "you will fail". Why didn't Nuwa consider adding this convenient function to humans when she created them?

"I also……"

Lift your chest slightly and adjust the inner position.

I am self-aware.

I am not young either. In a few years, I may surpass my sister.

11 month 16 day.

We set off.

There was nothing worth stopping for near the carriage. All the white outside had melted, and the temperature felt like the beginning of winter?
Seeing the sun again, I felt a little nostalgic.

"It looks like it's not just an earthquake. For our Dong City to be flooded inland, there must be a big problem upstream."

"The road is completely unusable. All we can do is walk over and see what the road ahead is like."

"..."

The situation in the area, perhaps several kilometers away from the carriage, is not much better.

The same dilapidated and ruined scenery. It was relatively easy to walk near the tracks as there were few buildings, but once you got to the residential area, it was a complete nightmare.

But the good news is that we can go into relatively intact buildings to find supplies.

At first I was a little scared to enter a building that obviously had many floors buried underground with only the top floor exposed, as I was afraid of seeing something that looked like a horrible death.

But there isn't.

"It's probably all been eaten by those things. And it's been a long time since I cleaned it out before, but I didn't see any human tissue inside. Just some garbage."

"..."

As expected, the water supply was totally unavailable.

The electricity is also wasted.

Compared with the original killers, their distribution is like that of rare animals. They are rarely seen.

It would be difficult to use them as food if you can't find one every two days.

November 11. Early morning.

Didn't return to the carriage.

My brother-in-law and I just found a building to go into to take shelter from the wind and rain. We found it in the daytime and luckily found a few buckets of instant noodles that someone had hidden in the cupboard.

The production date is January.

But when it comes to instant noodles, my brother-in-law and I both agree that as long as they are unopened, at least the noodles themselves can be eaten for years.

"Can you eat it?"

"Yes. Doesn't my brother-in-law underestimate me?"

I also put the monster meat that my brother-in-law had chopped into the instant noodle bucket. With the seasoning, it was the best thing I had eaten in the past few days.

But the psychological disgust does exist. I just won't show it.

Move to a place that is more spacious than the carriage.

We slept in separate beds, at least as far as a computer desk.

If you want to go to the toilet, you can go outside.

I really can't change clothes in front of my brother-in-law without changing my expression, especially when I go to the bathroom.

But... I hate this kind of wide area.

11 month 20 day.

I don’t know how far it is from the carriage where I was originally staying.

My brother-in-law and I saw a much better flat ground in front of us than before. Although the ground was sometimes cracked and a lot of debris was washed onto the road.

My brother-in-law found a very ugly motorcycle. You can still ride it after you wipe the seat.

"Buzz."

"With any luck we can get to the water plant today."

"..."

Walking is really annoying.

Even though I didn't want to show any discomfort, my pampered feet don't lie. I already had blisters.

Besides, my brother-in-law certainly didn't think about how I should sit.

No.

My brother-in-law never thinks about it that way, only I do.

"Are you that scared?"

"…If you throw it down, your face will definitely be smashed."

"Don't worry, your sister has always trusted my driving skills."

"..."

It drives so fast.

If you turn your face slightly, saliva will flow down your lips.

I'm still wearing a heavy coat, but with you hugging me so tightly... can I really not feel anything at all?

Very shy.

I have never been so close to someone before, let alone squeezed to the point of obvious deformation.

in memory.

It seems that except for the time I hugged my brother-in-law like this in Haidao City seven years ago, there will never be such an opportunity again.

There is a non-stinky smell of sweat.

"Xiao Xi?"

"Ah...why does the situation here not seem that serious?"

"It's on the national highway in the suburbs. The area around is relatively flat, and there aren't many buildings."

"..."

My face must have been red.

Just now I unconsciously wanted to smell the smell again.

The feeling of fear faded, leaving only the chest.

"Eh? That's..."

There is an obstacle ahead.

The huge sign fell on the road, covered by some small stones, dead branches and leaves, but you can vaguely see what the sign is advertising.

【World Tour Week 15, Winter Market Stop】

[Looking for the Queen Xier]

【…】

My brother-in-law took something and cleaned up the debris on the light board, trying his best to retain the details of the picture.

"hiss."

"What will you look like in 2067?"

"..."

How would I know?

Exaggerated smoky makeup and a leather miniskirt so short that the edges of the safety pants can be easily seen.

Why do I like wearing leather jackets?

Wouldn’t it be uncomfortable to wear such high heels?
"She's totally like a mature older sister."

"Eh?"

"Just looking at this promotional photo, it's full of momentum."

"..."

"Tsk, her voice is good, and her looks are perfect too. She really has the potential to be the queen of the day."

I do not know.

Why do you suddenly want to praise me?

Appearance... is it perfect?
Is it because of my sister? No, my brother-in-law is looking at my photo and what I said.

11 month 22 day.

Found the water source.

But it was not the waterworks, but a trickle of water flowing down from the cliff where a mudslide had occurred, at the foot of a mountain in the suburbs.

My brother-in-law went up to check and said the water came from inside the mountain. It should be fine.

He also said that the road map was completely different from what he had imagined. The suburbs were indeed suburban, but the water plant and other things didn't seem to be there.

I don’t understand…

I just know that the water tastes good. Better than before.

There is also a small supermarket.

However, many products were produced before January and cannot be used. Only noodles and seasonings can be used directly.

I actually pay little attention to these.

The food is almost okay.

It would be nice to eat better.

what differences are there?

Anyway, my brother-in-law will give me whatever he has. He is very thoughtful and will take care of me.

I am currently staying in a relatively intact suburban house that my brother-in-law found. There is nothing in it, and it feels like no one has ever lived here.

After spending some time cleaning up, I finally had a room to temporarily use as a bedroom. Mattress… It seemed that my brother-in-law was going to let me sleep on the mattress while he continued to sleep on the floor.

"Speak earlier next time. This thing will basically heal after a good night's sleep. There's no need to endure it."

"Don't be like your sister and never tell anyone anything."

"..."

The blisters on my feet were eventually revealed.

But my brother-in-law didn't think I was being pretentious. Instead, he blamed me for not saying it out loud.

I saw my brother-in-law wrapping a sharp piece of iron in cloth and roasting it to disinfect it.

"..."

I hugged my knees, feeling a little uneasy. Would it be better to put myself forward?
"The heel is hard to fix. I can fix it for you in two or three steps."

Aren’t they all very common things?

If it was a normal sister, her brother-in-law would do the same. Just think about alleviating the pain of the person you need to take care of.

But I'm not normal.

I felt very embarrassed, especially because the manicure I had done with my sister was clearly visible to my brother-in-law under the light of the bonfire.

"When did you get your manicure done?"

"...Last year?"

"Did you go to college last year?"

"not yet."

"Really? Girls have to be more delicate. Otherwise, they will be deceived in a few words."

Is that some kind of parenting policy?

That has nothing to do with me.

The reason I got my nails done was because I wanted to do the same thing as my sister... to show it to someone. Now that it's been seen, my motives haven't been exposed.

Being praised like this, I felt more and more weird.

It was obvious that my brother-in-law was just using a sharp object to help me pick the blisters.

"Sister, brother-in-law..."

"All right."

"…I want to go to the bathroom."

"Wear this. Don't get infected."

"..."

I stumbled out of the room. The strange feeling in my thigh wouldn't go away.

"what……"

Leaning against the wall silently, thinking.

How can I endure this? When will it end?
It came suddenly, and it may end suddenly as well. If we follow the natural pattern now, nothing may change in the end.

How much do I want to change?
if……

My brother-in-law knew about this. I was just thinking... would my feet be licked? Would he suddenly want to touch my legs? Would he want to force me to do more?

They will definitely think of me as a hopeless person.

but.

They say that men are animals with lower bodies, and once they have tasted the sweetness, they can't help themselves all the time.

I have tasted the sweetness of my sister.

so……

This is force majeure, and it is also... a kind of reward.

I have already silently given everything to my sister. But this is not reality, it is a dream where I don’t have to think about many things.

"Brother-in-law, your hands are so big."

"?"

"Brother-in-law, just take a rest. It's just cooking some noodles. I promise I can do it."

Once you think it through.

I seem to be able to do anything. I am now bending over in front of my brother-in-law...

Will you understand?

If it's your brother-in-law, it's okay if you want to see more.

If there is no reaction, I will...increase the intensity until there is a result.

My brother-in-law also said that I don't need to think about anything and just treat it as a dream. Let him think about the bad things.

Sorry, sister.

Please forgive me, I am just thinking about having a sweet dream without thinking about the consequences.

　These few days are pure Mercury retrograde. First I caught a severe cold and dislocated my right hand, and then I was immediately scammed out of 2k. Today, the report was rejected, and when I saw the scammer's message xxx, I was completely defeated. I only want to warn my fellow readers with my bloody lesson, never trust or sympathize with others with your own conscience, not everyone is human.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)