Chapter 174 Just like ten years ago

3 month 4 day.

Queen's University, Canada.

"Avril, are you sure you don't want to go?"

"not going."

"You know, Townsend and the others are willing to go because you will go..."

"If they have any dissatisfaction, ask them to come and tell me in person."

Avril was wearing a simple sportswear and looked very thin.

She doesn't fit in with the people around her who are wearing scarves and down jackets.

"Child, don't you feel cold?"

An old man asked in surprise.

"It's not cold. When I was a kid I used to take cold showers during the coldest time of winter."

It wasn't an unpleasant memory.

Physical transformation requires specific things to reshape self-awareness. These are my mother’s words.

The sportswear was just because she happened to be working out.

Morning and evening are both good times. Her mother gave her a physical fitness that is superior to that of ordinary people, but that doesn't mean she can always maintain perfection without any management.

It's annoying.

I was very annoyed in high school and thought that leaving the small town to go to college would be better, but I don’t know where more and more people got her contact information. Both men and women.

【There is no way.】

[Who taught you to look like a general when you tie your hair up, and look like a princess when you let your hair down? ]

【…】

Chatting with friends casually.

Maybe it was because she was from the Snow Country that they first met, and Avril was more or less curious about the Snow Country because of her father.

Later, she felt that the other person's personality was indeed compatible with hers.

[I rejected you decisively, and a few times I felt you were being ruthless. 】

[But after being rejected dozens or hundreds of times, their thinking may become like buying a lottery ticket, if they win big, they are still brave even if they lose.]

【What kind of idea is that? Disgusting.】

Decided.

Next time someone whose name I don’t even know dares to come over and say weird things, I’ll break his legs first.

I have obviously become much more restrained since high school. I am forcing myself!
and so……

Is this face really that beautiful?
Avril was not aware of anything and stared at the mountains outside the window. When entering the tunnel, because of the lights inside the car, the originally illusory face became very clear.

My hair color is inherited from my biological parents, with my mother's hair being brown.

But the color seems to be affected by the summer night, and it has an inexplicable luster. It becomes very natural.

She didn't like to use shampoo or take care of her hair... A lot of female friends in high school always asked, "Why don't you learn to put on makeup?" At the age of 14 or 15, a lot of people look the same as adult women. But soon they found that Avril always stood out even without makeup.

If you don't use sunscreen, you will get tanned, and Avril is no exception. But she is naturally good-looking, and can handle both wheat and snow-white skin. With her hair tied back and a headband, she can be a "man" on the tennis court. With beautiful side bangs and a slight parting on one side, she can be the most dazzling person at the party with beautiful clothes.

Her nose bridge was not high, and her eyes became more and more blue as she grew older. But she thought, neither her father nor her mother had such eyes, was it because her mother changed her body, or was there something wrong with her biological parents?
is it beautiful?
Avril took out a photo taken by a missing father with a sports camera ten years ago. It was a photo of her when she was taken skydiving, and it was an ugly photo of her in panic...her tears and snot were blown by the wind, and her lips were turned up, and even her gums could be seen.

What father would take a photo like this?
[Already on the way back. ]

Are you finally willing to come to Canada?

Avril closed her eyes and leaned back in her seat.

Logically speaking, people will not remember clearly things that happened when they were too young, such as seven or eight years old.

But she still remembers it clearly.

'Let me make a bet.'

'If you stand up, call me daddy.'

This is really not a normal adoption process.

But for her now, she feels that it is fate, just as Wendy said.

There are so many children with dark lives, but why is it me?
You don't have to think this way.

Maybe, there are so many gloomy children, and I am the only one who will be chosen.

About life.

Her idea is actually very simple.

Her father had disappeared, and there was little she could do to help. She was incapable.

University of Toronto, Economics, Computing, Research…

No matter what, I can never reach the level of my mother.

The same goes for Little Ivy.

The mother only said that she would support whatever she likes. This is the opposite of other families, who would think carefully about their children's future, including but not limited to future planning, career development, economic prospects, hobbies, etc.

No matter how childish you are, it is impossible for you to say that you want to become more skilled in using a gun, so you go to the army or go abroad to train with Wendy.

Occasionally, I would study the history and culture of the Snow Country.

It may also be influenced by that sentence.

"Studying medicine can't save the Snow Country people."

So, she wanted to learn martial arts and medicine.

The world is not what it seems.

Maybe, it will come in handy one day?
Losing everything at the age of 8 is the same as losing everything. What is lost and regained at the age of 8 will not necessarily be forgotten after 10 years. In other words... time can heal wounds, but it can also make them worse.

Avril went to Komuroran Cemetery.

That was where her biological parents were buried. She came less and less often over the years. This was what time faded away.

"I won't beg for anything."

"I used to blame you for letting me live."

"Now……"

"Dad, Mom, you have moved to a new place and started a new life, right?"

"No need to protect me."

"Now, I have a family that loves and cares for me, and I am no longer the weak child I was back then."

"I hope you will live a happy new life."

Unlike others who always pray for the protection of their ancestors, Avril just sincerely hopes that the parents who protected her from death have forgotten their dead lives and are living a new life.

How tiring it would be to continue protecting someone after death?

"Ah, I'll just complain from now on."

"Just listen and forget it."

Avril placed the bouquet in front of the grave and sat beside it.

Look out over the town in the distance.

"How should a daughter react when her father cheats on her?"

"You cheated on me once and you're just trying to smooth things over?"

"..."

"Twice?"

"Father has not repented at all and is still planning to live a feudal life?"

"..."

So difficult to understand.

I approached Sister Wendy with the message "I have a friend", but she always evaded the question.

Take a look at Wikipedia again?
Can't understand.

What do you mean by children are not directly harming people? If I worked hard to prepare a large table of food and then fed it all to my wives’ dogs, does that not count as harm?
Can you give your father appropriate advice and help him return to the right path?
That's the problem.

When Avril was a child, she never felt that Su Ming had any signs of cheating. If you ask if seeing Su Ming looking at a beautiful woman with black stockings counts, Avril thinks that her father, who came home and openly asked Xia Ye if he wanted to see black stockings, did not hide his love for his mother at all.

She also liked looking at beautiful women when she was a child.

Sometimes he would pull Su Ming aside and tell him where the long legs he had missed were.

Ok?
Think about it another way, have I become an accomplice?

wrong.

No matter how you look at it, they are a couple who love each other too much.

Sister Wendy also said that when my father was on a mission, he had many opportunities to cheat on her. And many women threw themselves at him.

What kind of woman would make her father cheat on her?
Should I mention it or not?
Taking the subway back to the town of Mont-Tomblain again, Avril thought for a long time and then confirmed one thing: if she cooked a large table of dishes and was stood up again, then in this life, Su Ming would never be able to get any help from her as a daughter, and she would just have to fend for herself.

3 month 6 day.

Night.

Florida.

Su Ming did not listen to the game instructions, there was no preface or notes. He just let Xia Ye tell him what he needed to do and who he needed to deal with.

This is the first time to complete the mission without the guarantee of loading the save file.

A little bit of aftereffect.

He touched the gun again, and the heavy and cold touch made Su Ming feel inexplicably palpitating.

The task is actually very simple.

It was just a sniper attack on a driver in a car from a distance.

The range is 3056 meters. It is not difficult to shoot with good visibility and low wind speed.

Retreat may be a little unfamiliar.

But he was not in a panic, because it was all memory engraved in his muscles. Seeing the gun worth more than 14 yuan being broken and sunk into the lake, Su Ming sighed and lit a cigarette.

"They are trying to restart the original project on Xiaoye."

"Restart?"

Su Ming took a puff of his cigarette and asked, "Want to control the whole world?"

"..."

Xia Ye shook his head. "What they are doing at this stage is just to show their strength to the superiors and gain bargaining chips and benefits."

“Who secretly controls wealth, power, and how much does it matter to ordinary people?”

"It doesn't matter."

"No matter what they want to control, I have only one goal. I will kill anyone who doesn't let me live in peace."

Su Ming threw the cigarette butt into the water.

"Polluting their water source first is also a form of counterattack."

"Big brother, childish."

"I hope that one day you can be as childish as I am."

"Big brother, it's 0:1."

"?"

"According to the people of Snow Country, Big Brother is entering the era of Internet Depression."

"This is not some Internet Depression Music."

Su Ming reached out and stroked her hair, "This is a person's ambition."

"Big brother, have you chosen Avril's gift?"

"..." Facing those pure and innocent pupils, Su Ming touched his cheek awkwardly, "Well, I have a plan. But I haven't decided which one is better."

3 month 8 day.

early.

Strictly speaking, it’s been more than ten years since I set foot on Canadian soil again, right?

at the airport.

The parking lot was still filled with cars that had driven in during the summer night.

The windshield was a bit dusty. No matter how much you wash a Volvo, you can't hide the fact that it's been in use for quite a few years. The date of its debut was clearly written on the frame: July 2011.

“This is when I leave…”

"Ah."

Xia Ye sat calmly in the left passenger seat.

"..."

Su Ming was somewhat unaccustomed to sitting on the right side, the driver's seat. It was the opposite of what he was doing in China.

Open the central locker. There is a folding knife for emergency use.

He opened the armrest and found sunglasses underneath. They were a gift from his daughter.

I opened the passenger locker and found a beaver doll inside. It was given to me by Xia Ye. She said it was a talisman.

There was a debate about this at the beginning.

Xia Ye doesn't believe in gods, but agrees with Su Ming that if you believe in them, you will gain from their protection, and if you don't believe in them, you won't lose either. But beavers are Canada's national treasure, not gods.

Su Ming tried to explain it for a long time but still couldn't make it clear.

So, Xia Ye suggested that "couples fight at the head of the bed and make up at the foot of the bed", and when the sizzle is done, they will forget what they argued about before. Or they will be so tired that they just want to sleep.

"Buzz."

There is no electronic ignition. You can only turn the key.

I don't know if the sound of the engine is a psychological effect, but it feels like that of an elderly person.

"Sorry."

"You just came back now."

"..."

Xia Ye looked at Su Ming and just smiled, "Big brother, don't you know there is a secret in the car."

"secret?"

I saw her taking out her bag from the back seat.

"Ten years ago, Avril secretly hid a bag in the car."

"..."

Are all the things inside condoms?
"She told Xiaoye that she didn't hate Xiaoye and Big Brother for giving her new brothers and sisters, but she didn't want too many."

"..."

"After all, the older brother was already very lustful at that time, and Xiaoye was even more lustful."

Is this a dark history or a sad past?
I can neither laugh nor cry.

"Anyway, I'm back!"

“Beach, family, career!”

Still happy, right?

After so many years, both my young wife and the daughter we raised together are alive and well. All I need to do is make up for it, not miss them.

"Big brother."

"Xiaoye also has a wish?"

Just as we were leaving the parking deck and passing the automatic identification barrier, Xia Ye spoke.

"?"

"this."

Xia Ye opened the bag, revealing the condoms inside, "There are 97 of them. They all need to be used within a week."

"what?"

"No, only give Avril a gift. Xiaoye, you want one too."

"No, 7 times in 97 days?"

"Rounding off, 100 times is fine, right?"

"Wait, is it my breasts outside the window?"

"There is no Tainai, only Xiaoye."

3 month 8 day.

Night.

It takes some time to get from Canada's Pearson Airport to the town of Mont Tremblant.

Generally speaking, driving fatigue occurs after 6 hours.

But Su Ming has always been in high spirits.

Although it is a scenery I have seen before, when I revisit it, I feel that every part of it is new and novel.

I met a fellow from the Snow Country while smoking at the service area.

"Have you bought a house in Canada? How big is it?"

"It's about 800 square meters."

"Only 800..."

"If you work hard, you will get it. It's just that my daughter's grades are not so good."

"That can't be helped, but children don't have to be good at studying. They can develop other interests if they like. I came here with my wife because my child wasn't doing well in school, so I just let her learn dance."

"My daughter is quite hardworking. Her grades were average before, only in the top ten in the school. Now, through hard work, she has been admitted to Queen's University."

"Queen's University...?"

The man threw away the cigarette he had just taken a puff of and walked away. You could see his silent lip movements.

So cool.

In the end, I became the person I hate the most.

Showing off is one of the most beautiful things in life. When we were young, didn’t parents always like to compare their children with other children? So that’s why it feels so good when your own children beat other children.

"Big brother, childish."

"Is this childish?"

"If this continues, Avril will get married and my eldest brother will collapse because he is obsessed with his daughter."

"Ah? Avril is in a relationship?!"

"……No."

"You scared me! But... well, she's an adult now. If she really wants to date... No, she's just a freshman, so she should focus on her studies. How can a child who hasn't entered society know what responsibility is these days? At least she has to be someone I like and think is okay with... Too strict? Normal fathers should be like me, right?"

3 month 8 day.

10pm.

In the small town of Tangbulang Mountain, the lights in Su Ming’s two-story villa were still on.

I asked twice via text message and once via phone call.

As a result, after just half an hour, Avril fell asleep on the dining table because she was tired.

She must be very busy.

There were four or five dishes.

Salmon candy is smoked salmon.

Sushi rolls...

Beaver, Su Ming can still remember the first time he heard of "beaver tail", and wondered how a national treasure could be on the table? But when he saw it, he realized it was a dessert similar to a beaver tail.

Avril has really grown up.

She is no longer the little girl who could easily ride on his neck.

The side profile when lying down has the soft lines of the women of the Snow Country, but also has another style of curves that is different from those of the women of the Snow Country.

Natural short brown hair.

Don’t like wearing home clothes at home, but prefer light sportswear?

"Avril, wake up."

"..."

I originally wanted to stop Xia Ye and push her gently, but perhaps Avril had woken up in a daze before that.

Her eyelashes trembled slightly. Because she was sleeping on her wrist, some saliva was dripping there.

He stared at Su Ming in a trance.

"..."

"……dad?"

Compared to ten years ago, my voice has really become more mature.

But even though his daughter is already an adult, Su Ming still wants to replicate the gesture he made ten years ago. He puts his hand on her head, perhaps with a guilty smile, a sad smile.

"Sorry, I just got back now."

Without saying anything, he left the mother and daughter to depend on each other for ten years.

I have never experienced the torment of waiting.

But it's easy to think about.

If Xia Ye suddenly disappeared with Avril for ten years, I would not be able to accept it. It's that simple.

"Dad, if you touch your head you won't grow taller."

"You're not much shorter than me now, are you?"

"dad……"

She stood up shakily, pouting for some reason. It wasn't a way of acting like a spoiled child, it was a way of suppressing some emotion.

"You're such an asshole... You took so long to get here, I thought I was going to be stood up again!"

"There's a little bit of traffic, but it should be about the same time."

"Anything you say for not being on time is just an excuse!"

The tears that were swirling in her eyes finally fell. She wiped them away, not knowing whether to cry or laugh.

"so annoying."

"If my friends knew that I was crying, I'm sure they would laugh at me."

"..."

"Anyway, I'll still say it first."

"Welcome home, you bastard dad who abandoned his wife and daughter ten years ago and only came back now."

Very thankful.

My daughter did not treat me coldly. Even after ten years, she would still hug me warmly and give me a generous hug.

"No, welcome asshole mom?"

"Eh? Stop making a fuss, Mom! This is a touching time! You must have had enough reunions!"

Just like ten years ago.

Xia Ye wanted to sit on his lap, and Avril, who felt excluded, also insisted on sitting on Xia Ye. Now it was a hug.

(End of this chapter)