Chapter 106 Don't Want to Lose (Two in One)

1 month 25 day.

Go back after get off work.

I am not used to the new home. The curtains are completely blackout, and there is no light at all when they are closed.

Although the decoration is exquisite, there is still no elevator. I'd better live on the fifth floor. It will be more expensive if there is an elevator.

No need to take clothes to the coin-operated washing machine next to the small supermarket to wash clothes. There is a 10-liter fully automatic washing machine on the balcony.

Parking the car in an underground garage is much less likely to get dirty than parking it in the open air.

The work is not tiring at all.

After I told An Shiyao about it yesterday, she apologized.

[I’m sorry… I’ve become so clingy without realizing it. ]

Until the end of get off work today.

[I have been very patient...]

Do you want me to praise her?
By the way, Su Ming discovered something when he went to the office.

To be frank, An Shiyao has the ability, but the fundamental reason why she is able to hold the position of general manager is her background.

Strong execution comes from background. Is that also considered as one of the abilities? Yes.

[Reward: You can use my toothbrush to do something without letting me know]

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【would not!】

【…】

She came here to practice her abilities and find herself. What she meant was that if she didn't recognize herself.

And now the focus of An Shiyao's life is entirely on herself.

It must be said that Su Ming knew that several executives were unhappy with her being parachuted in. It was obvious that An Shiyao had stood her up at that meeting.

Now I know that he stood me up because I hid in my room and cried secretly.

Indeed, the land of gentleness is comfortable. Being obedient and well-behaved, everything goes your way and playing various parties is also very smooth.

If it was the end of the world at that time, it would be fine.

But this is reality now.

An Shiyao's family, when searched online, is a large group involved in retail, hardware, department stores, and real estate.

To be honest, compared to the troublesome inheritance of assets, Su Ming would rather just lust after An Shiyao's body.

Wealth, or to work hard with Xia Ye to use it more comfortably. Should we teach An Shiyao to be more independent and become better?

Even if you have been intimate with a girl, it is still a little difficult to figure out her heart. There are more important things to tell her now than what to do with her in the future.

Yesterday was very busy.

Why do I have to stay alone in an empty bed tonight?
[Are you asleep? I want to talk to you about something serious. ]

The message I sent to An Shiyao was about serious business.

Definitely not shivering.

-

The place where An Shiyao lived was much cleaner than the day before yesterday. It seemed that she had lit some incense.

"I said we were talking about serious matters."

"Why are you dressed so beautifully?"

"...Anyway, it will happen in the end."

I have never seen her wearing a cheongsam. The slit skirt and the charm of her bare legs should not be underestimated.

Although An Shiyao was the only one living in this room, Su Ming had everything here. From the slippers at the door to the cups for drinking water, all were for two people.

I didn't buy so much that day.

If you look closely, you can see that the mugs for drinking water are a pair.

"First of all, I really have something I want to say to you in person."

"I didn't sew Mr. Su Ming's mouth shut."

She got very close and turned on the TV. The show was a foreign prank variety show.

"That's it. If you have time, come here and sit for a while. It's fun."

"Dress up nicely. That's because... I hope that every time you think of me, you'll be beautiful."

"..."

I didn't stop.

I always feel uncomfortable because I don't have a grasp of something.

Maybe subconsciously they think this will make speaking smoother.

"If you touch me...you can only stay with me until I fall asleep before you can leave."

Her long black hair was tied up in a bun at the back, and her snow-white neck, which was always covered, looked particularly dazzling. A wisteria-shaped hairpin made of glass beads was inserted in her hair, which also gave her a slightly mature and shiny vibe.

Her cheeks flushed and she lowered her face slightly.

It's half-wrapped again. The top is soft and the bottom is a protective shell.

"What I'm going to say next may be a little dreamy."

"?"

"..."

"Xia Ye, I actually already know the relationship between you and me."

"Eh?"

An Shiyao's face suddenly froze.

"I told her. I won't give up."

"The relationship between Xia Ye and me is not as simple as her coming here to work and then getting to know me. To be honest...she came here because I am in this company."

Su Ming wanted to report the situation and let her feel relieved.

"It's... it's because of me."

"?"

"I didn't tell you... that Xia Ye came to the hotel."

"what?"

Unexpected, yet also expected?

"You drank black tea and fell asleep that day, so I went downstairs to pack... Xia Ye came to see you."

"..."

"I just couldn't control myself and overreacted. I didn't know she would confirm..."

Why are the little pearls falling off?

The look in his eyes was shaken. "It's all my fault. I thought... nothing would happen. But she found the hotel. There must be other details. Details that I didn't notice."

"It's not your problem. I just admitted it."

"……Eh?"

"Because you are right. I really can't let her go, and I can't let you go either."

"You can understand it this way. She and I are a bit like childhood sweethearts who have been together for a long time and it's a natural progression."

Some dry mouth.

Su Ming poured another glass of water and took a sip.

But all I have to do is repeat the lines I said to Xia Ye.

"So, I want both. I told her, and for now... I've accepted it."

"You don't have to answer."

"I will keep pestering you until you agree completely."

"..."

nervous?
Su Ming couldn't explain it clearly, but he knew that An Shiyao was easy to deal with no matter what. She even said before that she didn't want a name and didn't want to destroy her relationship with Xia Ye.

But now I say something different.

People are selfish. Who would open their hearts and share their favorite people with others for no reason?
It’s like changing myself, I wouldn’t be able to accept it at all.

"Can you... tell me about Xia Ye?"

After a long silence, An Shiyao finally spoke.

"Ah."

It’s not that the dream game has a confidentiality mechanism that cannot be disclosed.

I thought that instead of "fabricating" something more difficult to understand, it would be better to replace the experience with Xia Ye with something simpler that would be easier for her to understand.

"..."

"She knew Mr. Su Ming earlier than I did?"

"almost."

"Being together longer?"

"From the perspective of time alone, it is indeed longer."

"Also... in a dream?"

"Well, don't you think my relationship with her is progressing too fast? On the surface, it seems like I'm pursuing her, but in fact, she's always trying to be compatible with me."

"anything else?"

"No, there's only you and her. I only knew the reality from the moment you confessed to me."

"She too, in the dream..."

"You've already asked that question."

"same as me."

"..."

The TV volume was not turned up very loud, but An Shiyao still felt it was inexplicably noisy.

Could there be such a strange thing?

Have.

Because my own experience was already very strange, so it was not strange to see something equally strange happen again.

How do you think?
Can't deceive yourself.

I feel that my relationship with Mr. Su Ming is definitely better than that between Mr. Su Ming and Xia Ye. Even if an ordinary girl is cute enough...how can she compare to my wholehearted love?

I am willing to be called a lint ball or a little slut.

My mind is in a mess.

If she had such strong feelings, why could she be so calm when facing me even though she had taken the lead and knew everything?
I have never expressed any hostility towards myself.

Even if we meet in the company, we will say "Mr. An, good morning" with a very calm smile.

In contrast.

I, on the other hand, feel guilty, jealous... and have an inexplicable sense of superiority. I feel that if time goes on longer, I will be the winner.

With this mentality, I was able to calm down only when I heard my colleagues talking about Mr. Su Ming and Xia Ye holding hands and exposing their relationship yesterday.

I can bear receiving the message from Mr. Su Ming saying "You will be the same". I don't think too much.

I sorted out a key idea from my messy thoughts.

"Xia Ye...know you're here?"

"do not know."

"What if you knew?"

“…I won’t say anything.”

The feeling of losing is getting stronger and stronger.

What am I most afraid of?

To be honest, I can tolerate Mr. Su Ming's cheating like he did in the shelter. It was only physical cheating, which I can tolerate.

But it’s different when your heart is unfaithful.

What I’m afraid of is that there’s a third person who’s just like me.

I lost.

In the contest of tolerance without knowing it, although Mr. Su Ming didn't know the despicable thoughts in my heart, I did lose.

A different experience than mine.

I kind of, I hate hearing that. I'm supposed to be special.

No one can compare to me.

"……if."

"I said, I disagree. Must Mr. Su Ming choose one?"

"It's simple. I'll do it until you agree."

"..."

That's too much.

"You answered Xia Ye in the same way..."

"She didn't ask. She didn't say anything until I said I wanted everything." "..."

Really, that’s too much.

Why could she just hold back and not say anything?

My body trembled uncontrollably.

"What if...she asked?"

"I will do whatever it takes to make her soften her heart and agree."

"Aren't you like me, doing it until she agrees?"

"Different."

"I don't have a choice?"

"No."

"You really...are going too far."

Tears inexplicably blurred my vision.

Didn't I come first?
Even if we are in a relationship, I will be the one to agree...

"Do you remember? I called a few days ago... and hung up again."

"remember."

"I hung up... because I was right at the door. I heard it."

"..."

"That's too much. I'm right at the door... How much courage do I need to be able to open up to you and even be looked down upon and treated like a bitch?"

"..."

"I always thought that no matter what, I was special... In the end, there would only be me. Not only was I lying to you, but I was also lying to myself. I always just thought that in the end, there would only be me. So I could endure anything."

Ungraceful sobbing.

But I am not a tolerant woman. I never thought that Xia Ye would exist until Mr. Su Ming and I actually had our wedding.

"I will not... agree to share!"

"There is still one wish left, the third wish..."

"No, the final right of interpretation of the wish lies with me."

"..."

The buttons of the carefully prepared cheongsam were unbuttoned.

Had I kissed Xia Ye many times like this the day before yesterday when I didn’t show up?
"I...hate this."

"Then why are you holding me so tight?"

"..."

I remained silent.

miss you.

Mr. Su Ming knows very well how to control me, not only my body but also my mind.

I have never had the right to choose in front of Mr. Su Ming.

But this is all based on the fact that your heart will always be with me.

"Just think of it as... a trick on me."

"Tell me, I am your favorite."

"..."

"Hiss! Why are you biting me after I told you so?"

What should I do in the future?

I had always rejected the idea of ​​a life without control before I was 18. After I turned 18, I was in a daze and couldn't find myself anymore.

If I were the me in the past and fell in love with Mr. Su Ming, I would definitely push Mr. Su Ming away. It's either me or him.

"Ouch... that's too much."

"They have all been chosen for me. It's like I'm here to let you know."

"I am, so... unimportant?"

"Of course you are important, but I want to sort things out before I tell you."

"That's right! I'm just jealous, petty, and intolerant... I can't compare to her! But, why didn't you say it earlier... How did you know that it was me who couldn't do it?"

"..."

"I was here first, wasn't I?"

"..."

"My third wish... Never leave me again, and don't miss her when you are with me. Today, I will live here."

"The wish is a bit long? Little Pearl, if you can take it in, I can consider it."

"I'm just jealous! Don't you just like to bully me and see me cry?! It happens many times."

It is no longer possible for me to be the proud person I once was.

At least in front of Mr. Su Ming, I have no choice. Do I have to turn my face and scold Mr. Su Ming, and then regret it?
I don't want to continue visiting the graves on Qingming Festival and April 4th.

"I've waited for you for six years... Why do you think I can't stand it?"

"Ugh."

"I'm already...very strong. I've grown a lot."

"..."

why?

After hearing these strange words from me, Mr. Su Ming seemed even more excited.

"Ahem, does this count as a confession?"

In Mr. Su Ming's eyes, am I like a masochist?

"If I agree... I'll do as you say."

I can't help but agree.

I can't accept losing again after losing and regaining.

So, I will hold you tight.

I don't know how to choose, but Mr. Su Ming has already helped me choose.

"No, I'm not unwilling..."

"Because you are by my side, and I am by your side. As long as it is like this..."

"I can too."

If she considers Mr. Su Ming so wholeheartedly, I can do it too.

It's just that I can't reach that point now. One day in the future, I will hold her hand with dignity. Tell Mr. Su Ming that although I am jealous and envious, I will not make a choice that will make him sad and tormented. Mr. Su Ming can't do anything about this. It's all a dream.

I am me and she is her.

1 month 25 day.

early.

Su Ming felt relaxed, and so did his body.

After all, An Shiyao was too easy to satisfy. Even if she didn't use her ultimate treasure, she would be extremely distracted. Many times, she would collapse before it really started.

Now that's all said.

As expected, An Shiyao accepted it.

The bed is huge.

"Wow--"

I heard the sound of boiling oil and frying something outside.

You can see it as soon as you go out.

An Shiyao was wearing an apron and frying eggs.

"Is Mr. Su Ming awake yet? You can sleep a little longer."

It was still early indeed. Just seven o'clock.

Her expression is very gentle, and the skirt and pink apron make her look like a married woman.

Do you think it's a bit too hasty to confess to her?

"It seemed a little casual yesterday, but I really wanted to be honest with you."

"Well, so... why did you touch me from behind while talking?"

“Nice apron.”

"Haha, Mr. Su Ming is really lecherous. The skirt... doesn't have that."

"?"

After a slight feeling, I found that the inner outline was missing.

"Xia Ye...is there a little slut like me?"

"..."

Hard to say.

When Xia Ye really wanted to seduce me, she was really... a pure little devil. I could arouse the idea in a minute, and I wanted to press her under me and make love with her.

"For now, just treat me... as your lover."

"If you want to shiver, hurry up. Otherwise, the breakfast will get cold."

"Why a lover?"

"Don't try to guess what a girl is thinking. Um..."

It's not just the skirt that's empty.

"You know what? To you... I'm more open than you think."

"Let me feel your love more."

"Who knows... I might get excited and give you an unexpected surprise."

Eyes as charming as silk.

Su Ming didn’t know what kind of brainstorming she had gone through, but now she was indeed... in a sense, even more astringent than Xia Ye.

"Haha, I'll be so happy that I won't think about anything. So I have to turn off the gas switch in advance."

"Ah, only you could make me do that."

"Hurry up... get the fever down. I feel very uncomfortable now..."

"..."

Su Ming felt inexplicably familiar with this situation.

Think again.

Wasn’t it at that time that An Xiaoxi cried and said that her sister was sick, and An Shiyao ended up having to give herself the injection?

"Mr. Su Ming, have you forgotten that you promised me not to be distracted and think about other women?"

"I'm thinking about An Xiaoxi."

"?"

"I suddenly remembered that you also made up an excuse that you had a fever and didn't want to infect Xiaoxi, but you ended up going in -"

"Don't say it!"

The face, which was just slightly rosy a moment ago, turned red again in an instant.

"Hurry up...finish it, and then go to work. Otherwise...Mr. Su Ming's year-end bonus will be deducted."

"Speaking of which, should my year-end bonus this year be calculated based on my original position or my supervisory position?"

"Nothing."

"No?"

"When serving my superiors, I still think about other things... all of that is gone. I will also consider transferring Xia Ye's work to a more difficult place."

"Okay, okay, you threaten me?"

"Then... what does Mr. Su Ming want to do? If it can satisfy... the needs of the little slutty female boss."

No one would understand, right?
In the morning, I woke up in the same bed with my biggest boss at her house. I had to feed her.

Then I watched her change from a shy state of wanting an injection to a professional skirt, wearing black stockings in front of me, and even asking which one was better. Then she returned to the cold-faced "Boss An" state.

"The secretary will drive over to pick me up. Do you want your relationship with my lover to be exposed?"

"It's already 51 minutes."

"If you are late, your salary will be strictly deducted. I can't cover up for Mr. Su Ming."

"An Shiyao, you did a great job."

"If you are dissatisfied with your boss's statement, Mr. Su Ming can come to my office."

"..."

After one night, she seemed to have changed.

But it did not prevent Su Ming from developing the mentality of having to conquer her so hard that he could no longer play the role of "General An".

Does this count as falling into her trap?
Hmm...it seems like it’s okay to get a few more?

(End of this chapter)